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I haven’t written for a very long time. It’s been a busy time for me, really busy. However for me, this year has been a very fulfilling year for me, as I have done and accomplish so many new things. Well, there are a few things that I unable to have and do, but so far, I am satisfied for what I have now. I know I could do better, and that’s what I aim for, to do better. I’ve seen changes in myself, and I am liking the changes that occur. One of the changes is to have more faith in myself. Used to, I always hesitating and doubting about me, and now, it lessen. Well, even though it is not completely gone, but I am now more accepting and believing myself more. Then, I learn, there is no use to suck up to other people in order to be where you want to be. Eventually, things happen based on what you do. You do a good things, you will get good things and vice versa. The things that I really really like to improved is about my habit of procrastinating, Imagine, the job that can actually be ...

Last year, I was working in other place ( read me as a teacher blog), and this year, I was in a new place. Its’ been more than 4 months in a new place, and yet, so many things I still adjusting and experiences. It is the same too last year. Got diffcculties to adjust to new palce, with so many things encounter, bad and good. Ohh…. Life in a new place isn’t that easy at all. To able to accommodate and feeling comfortable at a new palce requires time and energy. Money? Wow, need to spent on a lot of things. I know new experiences is good. It could give you more knowledge and let you become more mature and your wisdom increases. It could also backfire. That means whether you become a better side of you or become the other side of it. Weird, isn’t? Sometimes, the demands of life make us to make a decision that unthinkable and bad. But I guess, that is life. You will encounter things that you never thought that you will. Open mind and positivity do help in this kind of situation. Of course...

For the past few months, I discovered that I am a person who trusted that everything will happen as it should be and how naive I am.  Because of this attitude, I suffer loss for a few times. If only I be more careful, I could avoided the silly mistakes that I’ve made. A few incidence that makes me think this way because 1.    I went to a photocopy shop, and asked the shop assistant to photostat a few very important document. Then, after she finished it and i paid for it, I went home only to discovered after I arrived home which is more than 40 km away, that the shop assistant left out my very important document. I should report a complaint to the shop right? But I didn’t as I am a person who do not like confrontation. The next day, I went to the shop again and the shop was closed. I am very frustrated, and so I have to make trip there again. This won’t happen if I check before I go. I should adjust my hurry up attitude. Fina lly the third trip to that shop I able ...

I am shocked to find out that I havent updating my blog for more than two months? What have I been doing? Its been a long vacation, but I too caught up with thinking and doing nothing great. I do discover some good things too, but I discover my biggest problem, procrastination. I kept delaying things in search for one best thing, which I do not know what is it. It is so sad to discover that for the past months, Ive been wasting so many things, and one of it is time. I kept saying myself that I need to do something, but I don't do anything about it. I have a mission in life, I have plans, but , there is always but. I hate but, because but is just an excuses to make me feel better for the mistake that I've done. What makes me frustrated more is my indecisiveness in deciding what should I do. I kept doing something that I know that later on, I will regret it. Now, it seems so many things that I regret. It is bad, I know. So that's why I am letting go. Now I will focus on what ...

Today, I felt that my life sn’t easy and it really difficult. When I encounter difficulties, I cried. I felt hopeless and tired. Too many things has occurred for the past few days and it hurt my feeling terribly. I’ve creid a few times and felt that I’m a failure. I want to run away and make a new start. I don’t want to be here. I want to move out from here. Looking back, these past few years hasn’t been easy for me. I tried my hard to satisfied other people want and needs, not my own. I don’t know what I want, because I living for other people. I felt huge burden on my shoulder. I don’t get love from the people that I should. I’ve been ignored most of the times. But I still love these people. I want to run away from these people. My feeling hurt. Now I know what I want. I want to enjoy myself, I want to be happy, but then I found out it not easy. It so hard, it seem like I’m cannot deserve to be happy. I cannot control my emotion. I prefer to be alone than to be with people. I felt lo...

A trip For the first time in my life, I went oversea. Hahahaha, it kind weird to say it that way because it much nearer to go to this oversea, than to go to my country capital city. I’m Malaysian, living in Johor and Johor is much nearer to Singapore than to Kuala Lumpur. Yes, I just went to a place near my hometown and I’m glad I make the trip. Even though at first I nearly wanted to cancel the trip, but I’m glad I proceed with it. Since kid, I always been exposed to Singapore, and my interest towards English started with Singapore channel because at my home I got Singapore channel. And because Singapore used English, somehow, I was influenced to learn English and now here I am, an English teacher. Somehow, when I was teaching, I wonder how I can best teach my pupils. I got the advantage because I got exposed with English since I was small, but my pupils? They live in rural area, far from English usage and sometimes it takes many times before they can remember a word that I told them....

When I was a teenager, I'm not a kind of person who can easily smile. I find it hard to smile and of course to laugh. Even once, my teacher said to me " Don't you know how to smile? Maybe during that time, i went into an arrogance phase, therefore I don't bother much. But as went along, went into university, met new people, make acquaintance with so many people, I learn so many valuable lesson and one of them is don't be afraid to be friends with anybody. Just smile and listen. Yes, it the road of making new friends, I met so many kind of people, where sometimes, I can accept that person attitude and sometimes I cannot. Hei, I cannot be picky because not all can accept my attitude too. Some people are easily mix around, some are funny, some are low self confidence, some look down on me and so many various people. But, it that journey, I believe many of us also did, found a nice person who share their thoughts, and sincere in becoming your friends. I am lucky becau...

I’m a teacher. I always think, is everything what I taught my pupils, do they get it? It makes me worry all the time. But somehow, I know, they do not get fully what I taught. Even our brain unable to give 100% concentration all time, the most, it can only gives 100% concentration of not more than five minutes. Moreover, learning also involves memorization, and most of us know, memorization is not easy (it goes to me, I hate to memorize), that’s why as a teacher, I’ve been told that I need to expose my pupils to the real things of what they learn as much as possible so that they can better and easy to grasp of what I taught. (It’s not easy to be a teacher) At the age of 26, I realized most of the things that I know and learned, I learned through experiences, especially things related to heart. Learning from people and books, can widen our knowledge, but learning from real situations, have make me realized the real me. Have made me to think deeper and become more mature. Well of cours...

Last year, I discovered about Law of Attraction and its really intresting. One the main thing about law of attraction is to believe in yourself that you will get what you want. A confession from me, it so hard for me to do that because I always sit in the middle and never believe in myself that I can get what I want. I always keep secret what I want because I’m afraid if I tell people what I want, I will not get it and I will gain a lot of shame. But then something struck me. WHY BOTHER ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK? AS LONG AS YOU KNOW YOU DO NOTHING WRONG. Moreover, in the movie, the secret, one of the talker said that ‘ people who said most about money will have more money, and people who said most about misery, that people will have more of that. Also, I need to tell the world what I want. So today, I want to write on my favourite blog what I want in my life now. I WANT TO EARN AND HAVE A LOT OF MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO. Yes, I want money. That’s it. I’m kind a person w...

People need money. Like me too., of course I need money, I’m a people. Who doesn’t? well, I’ve heard that money cannot buy you happiness, but money makes the world goes around. Money cannot buy you happiness, but it fulfill many of your desires, and thus it makes you happy. Well, but it doesn’t mean that money is everything, but somehow money is very very very important. But money cannot give you EVERYTHING you want like peacefulness and pure happiness. But how can money not be my priority when at the age near 26, I just managed to hold a good job, yet face many difficulties and desires and hope to be fulfill? Hope and desires that can only be fulfill with money and it become more hurt for me as at this age I already have debt. My education loan, my car and people’s loan especially my parents. When I said to my friends about my spending habit where I choose only the cheapest and I always have doubt to buy, he said I’m a stingy person and I should not do that. He says money can always b...

For me, the main reason I start blogging is because I want to earn money. I learn that there are so many ways to earn through blogging, but turn out it wasn’t easy at all. Even though the earning that I hope is not yet achievable, but I learn other thing in the process. My friend now has become an author, and at the back of the book it stated “ write whatever you know”,. At first I was skeptical, and now I know why. It as a way for me to be able to express my opinions, and at the same time to gain knowledge. It is not easy at all to maintain a good blog without a good knowledge. Through blogging, I learn many things beside how to earn money through internet. I learn to be patient, persistent and hard work pays. I learn I cannot give up easily and I learn that there is always ways to any problems that you face. Yes, I meant it, problems. My main problem? Money. I know, money is not everything and money cannot buy me a happiness, but money can get the things that I want. ...

I quote this from Dale Carnegie book, which I recommend it to all to read. Win people to your way of thinking 1. The only way to get the best of an argument is to avoid it. 2. Show respect for the other person's opinions. Never say, "You're wrong." 3. If you are wrong, admit it quickly and emphatically. 4. Begin in a friendly way. 5. Get the other person saying "yes, yes" immediately. 6. Let the other person do a great deal of the talking. 7. Let the other person feel that the idea is his or hers. 8. Try honestly to see things from the other person's point of view. 9. Be sympathetic with the other person's ideas and desires. 10. Appeal to the nobler motives. 11. Dramatize your ideas. 12. Throw down a challenge. But, I really like no 1 to 4, because it always happen to me that I always meet people who always want to win in whatever they say. So, number 1 to no 4 is what I always try to practice. Once I was a person who always want to win in argument, ...

Have you ever experience stuck on something and you wish to get away from it? That's what I always do. Run away instead of face to that problem. I know its not good and right, but I always felt that its much better to run away from something that I do not like instead face to face with it. But I was wrong. Things happen for a reasons and there must always a way to fix it. Just be patient and hoping and praying. I realize that there are so many great benefits from patient. I am a person who wants to hurry in everything that I do. I do not know why I have this disease where a rushing person with a careless attitude. I hate it, but that's me. If you do not like something about yourself, you can either try to fix it or live with it. I began to realize and accepting that I have my own weaknesses like I have terrible handwriting, I have terrible social skills and I am not able to talk and make people entertain when they around me. I realized that and I accept myself, because I love m...

I never think really serious about the importance of being passionate and this week I have been given a wake up call why I need to be passionate and if not I will be doom. Easy simple, like maintaining this blog, I should be more passionate or else this blog is left unattended. Well, my passion is not writing but making money through Internet has make me started this blog and really to looking find ways and means to earn money through internet and that kept me going on even though the success is not yet to come. I am a future teacher. But just being a practical teacher currently has tested my patient a lot. Once when I was driving my motorcycle, I realized that if I do not feel any passionate toward my current job I will hate my job forever, and that will make me stress and having a lot of problems. Who will like to do something that they don’t want to do. Moreover my scope of work is dealing with the future generations to impart them a knowledge and if I do not it correctly an...

I’ve wrote about how to forgive and forget, but it much easier to write and talk than to do it. I cannot forget. What should I do to make things like it used to be? I can do it to my parents, even they angry at me because of something I do not do, but I cannot do to other persons. What I can do is to treat that person good only, but I cannot be talkative and cheerful anymore. I do not even dare to ask anything personal or even anything that I think necessary. I make myself to work alone and just follow. I am wrong, I know it. But my heart is so stubborn. I even know that by doing this, it will bring problems to me. But, I must learn to live with it. But, this is me. I’ve tried, but it so difficult. I have low self confidence problem. I do not think it as problem, in fact I begin to think it as advantage to me because it teach me to be humble and learn to be more appreciative. There is / are always something good out of the thing we think it disadvantages. I cannot obey ...

In my previous post, I've write that I will get my car soon. Well, turn out to be not this week as I have expected, but at least the process of buying it went smoothly, even though it kind shaky at the beginning. Now, I will present to you my new soon to be baby A white myvi. I might get the car by next week, yay!!!!!!!!!!! This is meant that now, I have to be more careful with my spending and has to try much harder to find more money. It kind a sudden decision, but as long as my parents approve of it, I know I have their bless of it. But it kind a pain to me because two days after I make my booking of the car, the price of oil in my country went up by 40% and that has make me speechless and want to cry. But I have to keep think positive and I always think and say to myself, there must be something good at the end of something bad. I must keep positive and telling myself that I can and able to face this challenging time. Oh, I haven't write, what make me suddenly decide to buy...

Well that is me. Brought up in a family where I am the only girl and the gap between me and my youngest older brother is seven years old has make me a lonely girl. I start to go to boarding school since 13 and until 23 I was away, study. The I stay at home for a year due to difficulties to find job and now at the age 25 I am alone again. Is this the cause I am easily bored? I do not think that’s the reason and I do not think it’s a family trait also, but more to my personal problem. I guess laziness is part of the problem and I used to have habit to wait, which is terrible habit. I remember when I was in university, I met many students who wait until last minute to study. Some on the night before exam they will start study. How they do it? Easy. Stay up until the late night and the reason being is that they will remember what they read cause the content is still fresh in their mind. Me? A big no no for me. That only will make me stress. But the weird thing is that, that system act...

Have you lost a good friend? Its terrible feeling, right? I have and I do not know why. If I could ammend my behaviour, I would. Sometime I wish we still be friend. I used to be a person who taken friends as granted, but as I am grow older, now I know how valuable friendship are. Luckily, I still have a few good and closed friends that I still keep in touch. In here, it 12:29 am, 11 june 2008, a birthday to one of my closed friend since in High School, Nafisah. She worked as a teacher in Sarawak. happy birthday Nafisah, may all your wish come true and I know what you wanted the most, right? No worry dear, you will find the right one as soon as possible and it will fulfill all the criteria that you wish for. Don't give up, ok? It kind weird how destiny work, isn't? I remember the second question I asked her during the first time we met. "was when is your birthday? the first question was " are you the new girl who transfer here? Who will asked a stranger a second quest...

Have you ever felt like you want to scream that you seem to be at the end of the road? I have and in fact I am now. Well, what matter that so serious that could make me so stress now? It’s none other than the increasing price, almost all the necessary things, the price has gone up. I am scared. Really scared. What I earn now will not possibly enough to make me survive a month, so how should I lead my life? I rarely hardly going out for fun and hardly shopping for cloth, and now I have extra bill to pay, then what should I do? But, that is life. Whether you like it or not, there will be time in anybody life that we will face situation that we hate it. My mom told me that I gained nothing out of complaining. It only make my heart more sick than it already has. Law of attraction reminder : You cannot focusing on the things that you do not like, because then you will attract more of it. In my case, the lack of money make me feel miserable and hurt. Speaking about Law of Attraction, one of ...

Well, does the title make a sense? I don’t know, but here is a situation. I am desperate to have a car. Not because I want to, but because I had to. Have you heard people buy a car because of the necessity to buy it and they suddenly buy it? Well, that’s me now. Truthfully, I do not have confidence to drive a car yet. Moreover, I do not have enough money, so why should I buy a car? And to add more, I am not stable yet. So, why should I burden myself to another debt? Adding more, my plan is to have house first than to have a car. But because of this situation, I had to buy a car. It’s only a reason right? So, how should I handle this situation? I am confused. I am in terrible mood because of this matter. I can live without car, but then I will face great difficulties in the next three months, but if I buy a car, I will face more difficulties in the next year. But looking at the other side, if I really buy a car, I will need to discipline myself to plan carefully about m...