Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Have you encounter this kind of situation? How that makes you feel? Sometimes when this happen, I felt useless to plan because the planning itself takes a lot of energy and of course consume a lot of time. But still planning is crucial. I am not writing about planning, I am writing about the good things when things happen unexpectedly. Well, for some this is like surprise and many do not like surprises. I like surprises because it makes me feel appreciated. The thing is, I always assume bad things happen because of something. Like I have try my best and there will be this little tiny voice telling what I did is not enough, i should put more effort or whatever this voices tell me and it did influence me. It makes me feel small and not confident. But when there is this little good thing hapen unexpectedly, I feel really good and it makes me happy. There is no need to take things seriously and once I done something, I should trust myself. It is not like I do not do anything, it just t...

Image via Wikipedia iTs been a long time since I put something in this blog. Seems my enthusiasm on writing has decreased… I do not like excuses because for me if there is a will, there is a way. So, the lack of writing is because I lack of will. In fact I visited other people blog more often than I visited mine. Its been a busy months for me, and weirdly it because of family matters. My parents house finally finish of building up… ohh, now I know why a house is so expensive.   But luckily our contractor put a very great price and his job is great. I wish him and his workers all the best in their future endeavors. Great service and great pay. Now I really wish to buy my own house now. My lack writing is also contributed to the fact that I take life more leniently now.   Now I see things differently and able to accept things easier, thus decrease the needs to put it here.   I also take things more slower and do not want to be at rus...

When you have something you like to do, make sure you do it on regularly basis because that will ease the stress. For the last few months, it has been a very stressful months for me and I haven’t a chance to actually sit and concentrate on my favourite blog. I was wrong, because this blog has been my de-stress medication. I like putting my thoughts on my writing. There are so many things that I unable to say and voice out, but by type it somehow it makes me feel much better. Works will never finish, and it will keep coming back, and if I kept myself drowning in it, I will be drowning deeper. I do not want that. There should be something else besides work that I should concentrate on. After this my plan is to go travel, learn to cook and sewing. Then, I have much more things to write. My job is fun, but I want to explore other things too. But one thing for sure, shopping is a no no, as I want to save money and buy house and travel to many places, and also save for money too. But weird...

Have you ever felt that you prefer to work alone? I do. And I still do, but there are times when I found out that working with people is much better and fun. Used to be, I do not like working with people because I always left out. Seems like I'm a weirdo and it makes me really hard to able to mix with people. Thus resulting in my low self esteem or contributing to my low self confidence problem. I do not know which one.  But then, I've met with people who laugh with me, and help me along the way. I do not feel sad anymore. I do not scared with people anymore. Yes, the problem of communication is there as I'm not used to talk freely with people. I also kind a person who always blurt out wrong things at the wrong time. Moreover it didn't help to have a terrible social skill. But i do not stop trying. I know the fundamental rules when establishing relationship with people, good intention and do not lie. If you do not want people to know your dark secret, just quite abo...

I guess, many of many things of my liking occur because of bad or not too good experiences. I’m talking about things that make me like it after something not good has occur. Like right now, my attention is towards to be better me, to be more healthier, more energetic, more calm and many many things. I’ve realized this quite a some time, and I know the road isn’t smooth, but somehow, through the journey, I like the improvement I saw. It is after I lacking the energy to do things and easily exhausted that I know I should do something about. Exercising to be fitter. Then, I hate the word change, seem like I’m so wrong to need to change.   As I do not like that word, I rephrase it, to be better by improving. Be more calm after I realizing that my not so good temper will create more hatred and enemy than friends.   I could make a wiser decision when I’m calm than when I’m in hire wire emotion. Emotion can be control in any situation, and it is good to learn to control it. Because...

Sometimes, you want to be heard, to be value at, and to be accepted. It is not as important as you should value yourself more, than expecting some one else to value yourself, but it is a good feelings. You try your best to satisfy and fill in the needs of other people, but  turn out they did that because they got no other better option. How do you feel? Because you are good listener, and good companion and helper, people will tend take you for granted. Have come across this situation? But then again, there always two side of coins, and maybe three, four, five and more. In this kind of situation, which I did come across a few times, (for the first few occurrences, I did cried), but now, I can handle better. Usually, I will tell myself that I did no wrong so, I do not feel guilty about it and tell myself to just face it, and forget it. And at same time, be nice. But usually I tend to avoid that person as much as possible. Working together, no problem, but to be close like used to...