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Image via Wikipedia Is it true? It is for me... Been many times friends who called me when they suddenly need help. They only remember when they have something to ask for and ironically when i ask help, it will not go the same way. Like when you suddenly asked a person not to forget her, but you do not do the same. You forget about her and weirdly when you are in trouble, you remember that person. For me, It is good to help because I beleive what comes around goes around. When you do good, you get good. But I know it will not always happen that way. I know about sincerity and never ever hoping that your favour will be return in any way, especially from the same person. For me it is not nice to do that. You want people to help you but you do not want to do the same? wow, nothing free in this world. The thing I learn about kindness is that it will come in a way that it is not expected. Like let say, people who I thought supposed to help me but  do not, and yet come another bett...

Hmmm….. I always have bad luck with friends. That’s why I’m afraid to build attachment towards people.  Once I’ve become closer, things will happen in a way that, that relationship will be broken in the middle.   It really hurt and I’ve been through that so many times. I wonder where is my mistakes are, I do not have other people specialty, good at conversation. I’m suck at it. I know that is my weaknesses, but other than that, I’m nice. If looks and appearance become an issue, well then I’m out. Now I realized that no matter how much goodness you put or give people, please do not expect anything in return, or else you will feel hurt. It just kind weird that, that you do not know where is the mistake is, and suddenly your relationship become cold. And I, once the relationship become that way, I felt hurt.. But I won’t retaliate, or do something equally hurt, I just ignore. I won’t be able be talkative as I used to be, and I have to avoid you as much as possible. But, I will...

Have you ever felt that you prefer to work alone? I do. And I still do, but there are times when I found out that working with people is much better and fun. Used to be, I do not like working with people because I always left out. Seems like I'm a weirdo and it makes me really hard to able to mix with people. Thus resulting in my low self esteem or contributing to my low self confidence problem. I do not know which one.  But then, I've met with people who laugh with me, and help me along the way. I do not feel sad anymore. I do not scared with people anymore. Yes, the problem of communication is there as I'm not used to talk freely with people. I also kind a person who always blurt out wrong things at the wrong time. Moreover it didn't help to have a terrible social skill. But i do not stop trying. I know the fundamental rules when establishing relationship with people, good intention and do not lie. If you do not want people to know your dark secret, just quite abo...

When I was down, the things that make me smile is knowing that I have friends that I count to. Friends that have helped me during my ups and downs. Friends who listen to my grieving and to share my happiness and sadness. Got something from facebook. Another red letter day, So the pound has dropped and the children are creating The other half ran away, Taking all the cash and leaving you with the lumber Got a pain in the chest, doctor's on strike, what you need is a rest It's not easy love but you've got friends you can trust Friends will be friends, When you're in need of love they give you care and attention Friends will be friends, When you're through with life, and all hope is lost Hold out your hands because friends will be friends, right till the end Now it's a beautiful day, The postman delivered a letter from your lover Only a phone call away, You tried to track him down but somebody stole his number As a matter of fact, You're getting used to life wi...

I was introduced to Dale Carnegie book by my friend Diya. I love her. Let me tell about her. I met her in matriculation centre of my university in 2002. She treat me very nice and talk to me and always answer my questions. She is very talkative. I am a person with a low self confidence, but the way she treat me make me felt very appreciative. I know a lot of things from her. She also do not show her arrogance even though her family is very well off and some of her uncles are very rich and have a high position in society. I believe now Diya has become a lawyer and hopefully a wife. But sadly, I iam bad at maintaining the relationship. I lost contact with her. The thing is, before I met her, I rarely met a person that will treat me nicely. Only a few and coming to new place in that matriculation centre and meet her, I felt very grateful. Even my schoolmate that went to the same matriculation centre hinted to me that she do not want to be friend with me because she will loosen out the opp...