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As I have graduated from my MA ... yes, this blogger has an MA in education ... kind weird, isn't? Even I do not believe it. It has been a rough journey and got ups and downs too. There were times that I do not think that i can finish my MA, but I did it. Syukur Alhamdulillah , for Allah has ease my journey and I got my success. After I graduated, I thought I would be happy, but actually, I felt sad. It seems like part of me, is missing. At first I do not what was it, but now, I know. I miss being busy with books, the adrenaline rush or being freak out to meet the supervisor and of course, I am missing my friends. It's been two weeks since I graduated, and now, I have to look for what I want to focus on for my life. I have my mission, but for my mission, I have to do something. Something that is beneficial, and I know, I have to start over. What I know after I finished my MA is that I need to be more confident with myself, and be proud of my achievements. Despite so many ...

There will always be things that I can be thankful of, my life, my food, my health, may laptop, my parents, my house, the achievements that I got. There are so many, so for me to complain of anything in life, for me, it is not fair. I also am very thankful for my religion, for I'm a Muslim and I want to be a good Muslim. I cannot always get what I want, but I can work for it. The road to achieve for what I want will be different from other , but I do not know what the others have to go through to get where they are now. I don't and I cannot judge. The past is the past. I cannot undo it now. There is no way I can, but I can take one step at a time to fill my life to the fullest that I want. There will always be obstacles but, I found out that the most hardest obstacles that I have to go through is from inside of me. I am my own worst enemy.

Considering that I haven't been updated my blog regularly that I used to do, even though I know that I like writing and composing and I always have trouble to think on what I should write about, so, I decided to write things that matter to me. And today, that matter is buying a new expensive mouse. Previously, I bought a cheap mouse that cost RM12, around USD 3,  and it do not working wonderfully. It hurting my hand as I have to use a lot of strenght whenever I want to click on something and as time passes by, it getting on my nerve. So, today, I decided to buy a new mouse, that cost RM79.90  and with 20% discount, the price has become RM59.90 ( around USD 13.60). Lucky for me. But as I used it for like five minutes, I love it. I guess, this is  what people are  saying, if you want a quality product, you have to pay extra. But, I do not mind to neglect on the quality as long as it bearable and more important thing it is chaep, but if it getting on my nerve, I...

The tempatation between the needs, the future and the wants.... which one you want to priotrize? is it even possible to have it in balance? Let say, you have financial obligation to pay, loans that you are so wanted to get rid of because it getting to your nerve, and the wants that you want to that you or people around you to be comfortable, so which one that you will choose? The easiest way is just to close one eye, and choose the one that pleases the heart, no matter which one but in my case usually it will be to have my wants to be fulfilled, no matter what the circumtances that will occur after that. But, one thing that I must fully understand is that every choices has their own consequences and set back. I need to take full responsibility on every choices that I make because it is me who make that call. Peer pressure, family pressure are all excuses or just reasons. That's why there is this popular saying you cannot get everything, but if you must, you can get but by pla...

Turn out, I haven't post anything in this blog for four months... wow ...., seem like I neglected it. Yes, I am. It is because I focused on finishing my master thesis . Now, I finished my final exam, and waiting to finalize my thesis and if Allah's  allow, I will be graduated by the end of this year... phewww..... it is a big relief. Too many sacrifices have been made, compromised and difficulties need to be faced. Truth to be told, I even do not know how I do it. But the journey has been really really really great. Now, for Muslim around the world, it is a fasting month. It is a month of Ramadhan and it is a blessing month. Well, for some, it looks difficult because we have to fast, not eating and drinking anything, but, there are so many great reasons behind it. It actually test the Muslim's patience and perseverance, and in return, we will be rewarded. I have done it for many many years and I do not have problems and I love this month. Well, after months of not ...

A few weeks back, a situation happen ....As at my workplace we have to do some kind innovations, and we have do it. It should be fall on everybody, but I do not why ... I got this conversation from my supervisor. He said, something about me liking to work alone and it not good, and I should with others and if come in the future and the tasks that befall on all are not done, he will blame it on me? Seriously? Is he should say something like that? What he said bothers me a lot. So, I decided to do what other people should do and it gives pressure to me. I suspect something must off for him to say those things to me because there are other people too. Yes, I like to work alone, but I do not have problem to work with others. I will share the things that I should share and being me, most of the times, I over share. For two weeks, I feel pain in my chest and hating my leader for not stand up for me... why am I be obligated with that responsibilities when he knows many actually do not d...

It actually keep you out of the trouble, but not exactly solving the problem. Mouth can create so many good and bad things but even good things can be interpreted differently. So, be quiet. Thus it leave the imagination of those who actually paying attention to me, to think as they might want to, but as long as I'm not involve mouth fighting that could turn into something ugly and bad. But, it not nice actually to keep everything inside. it not good to bottle up everything because once it get out, it might turn not pretty. I guess this is also where the stress is coming from. But I belive in saying that quite is intelligent. Stay out of trouble and focus on other things.

Have you ever been in situation that you face difficulties and you started to tell that person everything and the reply you get is"I don't know' .... it hurting to get that kind of feedback. Maybe a reply like... "that's ok, people make mistake" not like a word like this you should not do that and when you hear the same person can give comforting words to other people, you will feel hurt. It kept happening again and again to me. Sometimes, I do know that what I did is wrong, it just I had to ... and when a person tellss you that actually that person is hurting inside and just wanted to hear comforting words.... For me, there will always a way out .. always... just no judgment and utter kind words to the hurt person... I guess, this is where I can find my comforting moment ... by writing it out.

Continents by colour simpler (Photo credit: Wikipedia ) It is ... why like things to be complicated? When things are too complicated it will give you headache and pain in the heart ... try to avoid it. As a woman, women, for me tend to complicated things... right? Because I know I do. Sometimes an easy things to do and without even starting on it, I already thinking ahead of time with this question ... what if? Do what you think is good and appropriate. Bother about own feeling first without the need to indulge too much in the future. That's why people say that knowledge is important so that I can make an inform decision and not only guided by heart only. Have a plan and know and stick to the plan. Because of this 'what if' thing keep bothering, I will make things so complicated... when the thing is actually a piece of cake.

English: konafa, an Egyptian dessert made of thin pastry strands, nuts, and sweet syrup (Photo credit: Wikipedia ) I do... by sweet teeth I meant liking sweet things, especially dessert...The mouth watering delicacies that leaves you to eat more and more even though how bad it is to your body and health. But, because of temptation and craving and deliciousness ... it hard to say no when you see the beautiful colorful desert that being lay to you ... hmmmmm... So now, I'm going to promote a product where you can still enjoy your craving sweetness and yet are not feel guilty afterwards. It is a guilty free dessert recipe. To find out, please click here

Yes, it is either you do the things that you want now, or as you are procrastinate, it hardly happen. Well, it is to me. DO not do the things you can do now to another time. It is not a wise decision. I have encounter that always. But the thing is certain things need mood to do that kind of job. How to make sure the mood is there? hmmm, that is surely a hard questions. But, the thing is I cannot wait for the mood to come. As I have the opportunity to do it, then I should do it. Time is gold and in Quran also emphasis the importance of time. Those who wasted it are those who are loss. That's why I come up with the list that I have to do so that I can always refer to the things that I have to, no matter at what time, because sadly we are living in the time whereby even there are great technologies that should make our work less it happen the other way around. People have to work harder to cope with the challenging times, knowledge that needs to be fill so that you and I would n...

It just January and I already felt stressed out and I haven't even started on my classes for my master. This will be my fourth semester and hopefully, it will be the last semester. Most of the burn out coming from the work stress. Stress come from all around me, the demand of the work and the need to stand with various type of people. At the beginning usually people will just suck it up, but as time goes by, people will get sick and tired. That's where the stress and burn out coming from. I know, stress happen because I do not able to handle the pressure very well and I admit it true, so I decided to do this. To focus on new things so I get distracted and not too focus on the problems, instead, I deal when the times come and the need arise. Other than that, nope, I just want to focus on the things that will benefits me instead of harming me, so this is what I decided. The thing is, people tend to forget when the time arise, with confidence, people can face any problems ...