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Wow, December has come in. This will be the last month for 2010. Time flies really really fast. That’s why I believed in saying that time is gold. Once we lost it, we cannot retrieve it back. If I have to make summary of my 2010, I can says that it is a very fulfilling year, but still I’m not satisfied over what I have done and achieved this year, because I know I can do a lot better. But, throughout 2010, there are many things I learn, especially about me. Perseverance and smile is very very important. Avoiding complaining and backbiting as much as possible because somehow it will come back to you. When you look things positively, so it going to be positive and vice versa. You are what you think. But there are things I’m disappointed. Quite a few. I’ve lost a best friend because I cancel our trip. I cannot go. But, she won’t understand. I’ve tried to talk to her, but she sees it as totally my fault. Me back off from the plan, it is really me. I guess, I kind a person who likes to si...

Heavily occupied of what people think of what you are doing, talking, and even  appearances? Well, don’t. It is a bad bad bad things to do. It is wasted, as the only opinion matter is from yourself, and no one else. People’s opinion do matter, but do not think of what they might think, as it is not your job. You are what you think. You are grown up woman, you’ve learn a lot, you experienced a lot, so you set to go to conquer the things that you want. It is not your job to identify whether you will succeed or not. Why bother with the outcome when the journey to go there is much better? But it doesn’t mean you have to be selfish. Listen what people says, but have a good filtering system, because not all what people said is worth to think or to be worry about. This is a reminder for myself, as she is too worry  of what people might think of her. There are so many drawbacks when you keep on worrying of what people might think, and one of it is, it delaying your success. People ...

Do u have this kind attitude? I am, and really, it is not good and wasted. Most of the time, when you do things based on attitude as long as I do it, the product of your quality isn’t good. I know about it, yet I still do it. And when the products isn’t satisfying, I have to redo it again. But the thing is, I should able to avoid it. It is really wasting of so many things, especially time. Remember time is gold.   But then, old habits die hard. Hmmmmmm And because of this…. Actually my habit likes to do the job as early as possible, then left it there, and then when the time to submit is near, I will finish it. Usually, I did able to finish it in time, it just doing job last minute isn’t good. What if, during that time another things come up, how am I supposed to finish it? By the way, procrastination is at work. A work that could be settle in an hour or two could takes a few weeks because of this unproductive attitude. And it happened again. Me and my carelessness and my as lo...

Sometimes, you want to be heard, to be value at, and to be accepted. It is not as important as you should value yourself more, than expecting some one else to value yourself, but it is a good feelings. You try your best to satisfy and fill in the needs of other people, but  turn out they did that because they got no other better option. How do you feel? Because you are good listener, and good companion and helper, people will tend take you for granted. Have come across this situation? But then again, there always two side of coins, and maybe three, four, five and more. In this kind of situation, which I did come across a few times, (for the first few occurrences, I did cried), but now, I can handle better. Usually, I will tell myself that I did no wrong so, I do not feel guilty about it and tell myself to just face it, and forget it. And at same time, be nice. But usually I tend to avoid that person as much as possible. Working together, no problem, but to be close like used to...

Are you kind a person who easily jump into conclusion? Ok, let say, you meet a person who her parking skill is bad, so, without knowing her, without even say hello, you just says this to her, ‘are you paying for your license ( means that you are getting your license not in right way by paying your instructor so that your license is approved ?) I stumbled this kind a person yesterday. Luckily I am not that  kind a person who can answer back immediately, or there might be war. Just because you have a good car (by the way, it just vios, many people have it, and it still belongs to the bank, and within 7 years, many things could happen) and mine is MYVI, which I am very proud of it, it doesn’t serve you right to say that, to jump into conclusion to sarcastically says that easily. You do not even know me. I found it very rude. I have been in this situation, unable to park when the place is too crowded, but instead of getting sarcasm remarks, that person, offer me to help. That is cou...

At times, there are many times that I feel lost of the things I should do, react and talk. I wonder what should I do to make things better or at least do the right things. What is right for me, might not be right for some other people and it could be vice versa. I’ve been in situation where I do not know what I did, until a closed friend of mine suddenly stay away from me. It so frustrating and heartbreaking. AT that time I do not have courage to ask why. But I do feel depress. At many times too, I met people who become so sensitive towards things I do and say, and it become an issue. I’ve been there many times. It isn’t good.   So, I resolved to no talking policy. By the way, I once heard people say that quite is clever.   ^_^ I cannot and will never able to satisfy all people needs and demands. I cannot even meet my own demand, and how can I meet other people demands? And the things that I seem appropriate, might not be appropriate to other people. If I keep indulge myself...

The Basis of Financial Planning is knowing your goals…. Hmmm, that seems very hard to me, as my goals are too many and with my current job and pay, I wonder whether it is achievable Hmm, but then I found a few golden rules about personal finance,   and that are 1.        1.  Pay Yourself First 2.        2.  Live Within Your Means When I first saw ‘pay yourself first’, means that you rewarding yourself after the work you do that makes you get that money. Hmmm…. Turn out it was totally wrong. Pay yourself First, means, you keep aside at least 10% of your money for your salary. Keep it as saving. For me to save 10% is already a great achievement and for those who able to save more... wow.  Once I heard this lady able to save a lot of her salary so that by age 50, she has a million in her bank account. Wow, and that lady is same age as me. Live within your means, means no exaggerating in your spending and be prudent on your spe...

I haven’t written for a very long time. It’s been a busy time for me, really busy. However for me, this year has been a very fulfilling year for me, as I have done and accomplish so many new things. Well, there are a few things that I unable to have and do, but so far, I am satisfied for what I have now. I know I could do better, and that’s what I aim for, to do better. I’ve seen changes in myself, and I am liking the changes that occur. One of the changes is to have more faith in myself. Used to, I always hesitating and doubting about me, and now, it lessen. Well, even though it is not completely gone, but I am now more accepting and believing myself more. Then, I learn, there is no use to suck up to other people in order to be where you want to be. Eventually, things happen based on what you do. You do a good things, you will get good things and vice versa. The things that I really really like to improved is about my habit of procrastinating, Imagine, the job that can actually be ...

Recently, I found out about that I’m easily tired all of sudden and I’m not that active I’m used too. It makes me worried. I also found that my weight has increased. This is not good. So I decided to start a new habit, an exercise. Hmm, who says exercise is easy. For the first few times, I felt so tired only after 10 minutes of exercising. But I felt more energetic and my mind seems to work faster and active, I like it. So I continue to do the same exercise. It become better each time.   Moreover, exercise produce endorphine. Endorphine makes you happy. Happy people would not kill their husband. These are my favourite lines from Legally Blond the movie. Well, it is indeed truth that exercise makes me happy. ISn’t that most of us are searching for ? Happiness? So here is the guide how to get happy fast. Exercise. I would so recommend jogging on the beach. It so peaceful and calm. I felt so relax after a jog at the beach. Luckily for me, beach isn’t too far from my place. Here is...

It is easy to forgive than to forget. Image from here   But I’ve heard a saying said that if I do not forget, that means I’m not yet forgive that person. Is it? I do not know, maybe there is a truth there. But it is not easy to forget something that is very hurtful, and that’s the reason I get angry and thus raising the need from the other party to ask for forgiveness. I’m afraid if I forgot about it, the same thing will happen again and I become hurt again. Thus, it become harder for me to forgive again. So, what should I do then?  To not forgive and letting go, I'm putting a lot of things at risk. Friendship, connection and family ties if it include families member. Too many things is being jeopardize. And as a Muslim myself, it is discouraged to shut off a connectionn beween people. Therefore, as hard as it is, I have to persuade myself to forgive and letting it go. I know the same things will be bound to happen again, and I have no choice, but to face it. But when the ...

CHOICES  Image from here When i was a kid, being the first is the best, getting the most is the best, and as i grown up, the ebst becaome harder to define and become the best has become impossible. Being a grown up, I know now that being the best isn't anything. It's not that I've been the best, and I do not remember if i ever being the best. I stop trying and feeling like a failure all the time. Self esteem is the lowest and I have no intention to improve myself whatsoever. But I just keep on walking. I keep on walking because I  had too. I realized now that I loss so much and become regret, and it does affected me in someway.  I wished that somebody will come to me, guide me and says that's ok. But turn out that person that I've been waiting for is inside of me. After all the guidance and education that I've been receivedd, I failed to realize that in order to choose the best, is to choose what is right for myself. What is right for me might not be righ...