Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

You have to bite your tongue, and keep on walking ... because the reality is hurt, you will meet people who hurt you, used you but still you are going to meet people who lift you up ... But usually, the one that hurt you, you will be affected he most. But the one who makes you smile and your life easy, you forget about them .. that's why people said, no matter how much goodness you do in your life, because of one mistake you do, that is what people will remember the most. As an introvert who thinks too much, who keep everything in herself, I found it hard to deal with negative people, it really hard. I envy those who able to keep on going, happily without a trace of low self esteem despite the things that they do. I envy those people, because I am not like that. Well, each people has their own attitude, but certain attitude will eat them alive if they do not learn to fight it, to face it. It is inside that matters, because what you feel inside will materialize in the outside.

Since last week, I watched this Korean drama .. Go Back Couple, watch teaser here , and there was this sentence or act that makes me thinking hard, what do I do when I was 20 years ago? This story is about a couple who submitted their divorce application because they both cannot stand each other anymore, and as luck struck in, they went back to their youth, at the age of 20 ... and how everything started, the flirting, the friends, the family, the love, and this got me thinking ... what do I do when i was 20 years old, then, compare to my current life, where, nearly 15 years has passed, do I feel proud of my life, or should I do better? When I was 20 I was struggling with my studies, and I do not have male friends, or boyfriend when I was in university. But I do have friends. Thinking back, it is my nature to do things alone, and it never m forte to talk to people about my difficulties and turn out, until now, I still have the same kind of traits, but now as trust people more, and ...

Things that we want, we need to work hard for it, wait for it, keep the faith and believe that whatever we want, we can achieve it, we can get it. Positive attitude that must come with it. Sometimes, it takes a lot of challenges for it to actually happen, but because of the believe and faith, it can happen, some will take days, years, month, and that's why patient and perseverance are very very important. Life is full of surprises with ups and downs, but it cannot stop me from keep on walking and chasing what I want in life. Even though most of the times, I have to walk alone. But, however alone I may feel, god, Allah, is always there. Then, there is the power of prayer, as whatever we want in life, we need to pray for it. People, like me, usually only pray for money and wealth, forgot little things that are important like health, happiness, good friends, good family, calmness in the heart, a good spouse, and pray that I will be hinder from bad people who only come for a purpose,...

Nope, it is not ok at all, because there are so many things in the world that is beyond of our control. Why thinking of something that is unnecessary? The thing is, overthinking will eat you from deep inside without you realize it, as it happen to me. You might think, it just in the head, well, it is, luckily it just in your own head, and what if you voice out everything without care of the situation? Well one thing for sure, it is not good. If something is bothering you deeply and you cannot stop thinking about it, you stress about it, please do something else that could keep away that negative thought from haunting you, please you must do it. Even though it will unable to keep that thought away, but at least you give your mind and heart a break, a break from the unneccesaary stress and pressure. Stress and pressure could cause a lot of diseases and unpleasant situations, like you cannot enjoy your life and your heart and mind are being distaracted the things that is not good for ...

I was surprised to see some people manage to save more than 20% of his salary ... even a single person like me find it hard, but to see and know some people able to do it, it amazes me. Maybe because of my greed and spending habits cause me this problems ... Some people will say it is not about how much money you make, but how much money you can save. The things are, the life seems to demand so many things from me, a good cloth, a comfortable house,  a nice car, and the list could go on and on and in the process I spend all the money I earn, I furthering the time I should work, because I need to earn money to pay the expenses, especially the loan and the interest. There is two parts of me, one says, spend, one say, save, and usually the spend will win and I abide the command to spend. The thing is, when I look back how bad I am at managing money, I kind lost a lot of things, like time to retire early and need to work until I reach my retirement age. I kind see what ...

Nothing in life comes easy and of course free. Nothing can come coincidentally without someone need to work hard for it ... There is a price you have to pay for anything in life ... Sometimes, yes luck do happen, but it hardly happens ... if you want something, you need to work hard for it, learn, walk, do, proceed, and no matter how small the steps that you take, keep on moving and don't lost that will. Currently, I am pursuing my PhD and there are so many times, I felt that I need to give up on this path, as it too hard and why should I do it? I know, I have to do it, because if not, I will be slacking off in my life and this is my opportunity to grow myself... but I find no passion and enthusiasm to continue the journey. If I want to get my PhD, I have to work hard, focus and disregard anything that disturb my journey to get the degree even though I am not sure what benefits do I get from obtaining that degree as my current job does not take account my advance degree. But...

This , I got from facebook, it is not mine, and I do not know to give credit to whom ... but whoever wrote this, this is beautiful and resonate well in me ... It helps me a lot .. REACTING TO EVERYTHING I’m 'Slowly' Learning That I Don’t Have To React To 'Everything' That Bothers Me. I’m slowly learning that I don’t have to hurt those who hurt me. I’m slowly learning that maybe the 'ultimate' sign of maturity is walking away instead of getting even. I’m slowly learning that the energy it takes to react to every bad thing that happens to you drains you and stops you from seeing the other good things in life. *I’m slowly learning that I’m not going to be everyone’s cup of tea and I won’t be able to get everyone to treat me the way I want to be treated 'and that’s okay.'* *I’m slowly learning that trying so hard to ‘win’ anyone is just a 'waste' of time and energy and it fills you with 'nothing' but emptiness.* *I’m s...

Money isn't everything, I know that, but it can get what you want and it necessity and in future, if you do not plan well, when you have emergency and future endeavors that you need to do, but lack of fund, you will resort to loan ... like what I did now ... When I look back at my previous expenditure, I found out that there are many things I shouldn't bought in the first place and 'if only' I save that money, today, I will have a lot more saving in my account, but who am I to lie to myself? When the truth hit you, you spent recklessly, intentionally and now, when you look at your saving at this age, you cry alone at the corner of the room ... if only I take saving seriously since I was young ... When I was young, catch up is something I think I can do ... past is past, but there are ways to mend it, but the truth is, the later you start, the harder it will become ... but it doesn't matter now, as I should start somewhere .. and not be occupied with previous mis...

I think my biggest priorities in 2018 is managing my finances.... As I discovered, I have been blessed with good and stable job, but lack of consideration to save money and be serious about my finances... It is not I am in big debts, but, if I am serious about managing my finances,  will feel a lot better and be a lot happier and able to do things I want, without keep checking on my bank account on whether I able to pay off my credit card bill in full this month. I read a lot about finances, only until recently I found out how important it is to be ready for the rainy days. As usually for my rainy days, I always have back up, but now, in 2018, I have to get serious. So my plan in 2018 are to use what I have now without the need to add more items because currently in my mind, there are like million of things I want to buy and have. Second, budetting and stick to it, three, list out my debts and how I can pay off that, fourth, to have more saving and diversify my investments. W...

have you met people who you feel drain you, do not like you for whatever reason is? How do you feel after that? Unfortunately, I met these kind of people and it kind hard and suffocating you. You just feel that this person do not like you and give you bad energy and in result, you feel hurt in the end ...How do you deal with this kind of people? For me, I try to avoid them as much as possible and focus on something else. Some will face this person and deal with it, but for me, as I have a very simple mindset, whereby if I like it, I work for it, and if I hate it, I avoid it at any cost ... because I am afraid by me face on, it will create more hostility and problems, so I will avoid it. But those who know me, know that I will work diligently on the things that I have been assigned to, it just I do not have the energy or capability to kiss people asses, to talk freely and share everything about me because I ended up feel drain and tiring myself ...I have low self confidence you see,...

2017 has been a very challenging year to me, heartache, difficulties, and yet dreams are fulfilled .... But there are so many things I learn and one of the most profound thing I learnt is that whatever your circumtances are, do not stop ... do not stop do what are good for you ... just don't ...keep on moving and avoid things that make you uncomfortable ...even though at times, you have to lie about it, in order to avoid conflict within yourself and of course people surround you. One thing I learn is that in life, you will meet people that make you feel uncomfortable, depending on your situation, some people you will face head on, but as I do not like confrontation, I will try my hardest to avoid it, even though in the end I feel left out, but I fill it up with something else ... be creative, don't caught up with your feelings of pity and sadness, because there are so many new things you can learn to do and focus .. like learning to budgeting and focusing to improve your fina...

People change, but why they are changing? Sometimes people change because of something that happen to them, that only them knows about, but people change because of reasons. The easiest cause of change is because that person has been hurt again and again and for this, he or she decided enough is enough. Its better to walk alone than to be hurt, than to compromise oneself for somethings that is hurting or not beneficial, as it much better to focus on something that is good and beneficial to oneself than to force to like something or to be include in something forcefully. Whatever the choice that the person takes, there must be pro and cons, but it is decision taken to suit oneself, as that person mature enough to make his or her decision.  The decision to change, hopefully it is a right decision, to make the changer a better person than what she used to be ... to be more confident and good in her job, and able to attract right people into her life.