Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Nothing in life comes easy and of course free. Nothing can come coincidentally without someone need to work hard for it ... There is a price you have to pay for anything in life ... Sometimes, yes luck do happen, but it hardly happens ... if you want something, you need to work hard for it, learn, walk, do, proceed, and no matter how small the steps that you take, keep on moving and don't lost that will. Currently, I am pursuing my PhD and there are so many times, I felt that I need to give up on this path, as it too hard and why should I do it? I know, I have to do it, because if not, I will be slacking off in my life and this is my opportunity to grow myself... but I find no passion and enthusiasm to continue the journey. If I want to get my PhD, I have to work hard, focus and disregard anything that disturb my journey to get the degree even though I am not sure what benefits do I get from obtaining that degree as my current job does not take account my advance degree. But...

This , I got from facebook, it is not mine, and I do not know to give credit to whom ... but whoever wrote this, this is beautiful and resonate well in me ... It helps me a lot .. REACTING TO EVERYTHING I’m 'Slowly' Learning That I Don’t Have To React To 'Everything' That Bothers Me. I’m slowly learning that I don’t have to hurt those who hurt me. I’m slowly learning that maybe the 'ultimate' sign of maturity is walking away instead of getting even. I’m slowly learning that the energy it takes to react to every bad thing that happens to you drains you and stops you from seeing the other good things in life. *I’m slowly learning that I’m not going to be everyone’s cup of tea and I won’t be able to get everyone to treat me the way I want to be treated 'and that’s okay.'* *I’m slowly learning that trying so hard to ‘win’ anyone is just a 'waste' of time and energy and it fills you with 'nothing' but emptiness.* *I’m s...

Money isn't everything, I know that, but it can get what you want and it necessity and in future, if you do not plan well, when you have emergency and future endeavors that you need to do, but lack of fund, you will resort to loan ... like what I did now ... When I look back at my previous expenditure, I found out that there are many things I shouldn't bought in the first place and 'if only' I save that money, today, I will have a lot more saving in my account, but who am I to lie to myself? When the truth hit you, you spent recklessly, intentionally and now, when you look at your saving at this age, you cry alone at the corner of the room ... if only I take saving seriously since I was young ... When I was young, catch up is something I think I can do ... past is past, but there are ways to mend it, but the truth is, the later you start, the harder it will become ... but it doesn't matter now, as I should start somewhere .. and not be occupied with previous mis...

I think my biggest priorities in 2018 is managing my finances.... As I discovered, I have been blessed with good and stable job, but lack of consideration to save money and be serious about my finances... It is not I am in big debts, but, if I am serious about managing my finances,  will feel a lot better and be a lot happier and able to do things I want, without keep checking on my bank account on whether I able to pay off my credit card bill in full this month. I read a lot about finances, only until recently I found out how important it is to be ready for the rainy days. As usually for my rainy days, I always have back up, but now, in 2018, I have to get serious. So my plan in 2018 are to use what I have now without the need to add more items because currently in my mind, there are like million of things I want to buy and have. Second, budetting and stick to it, three, list out my debts and how I can pay off that, fourth, to have more saving and diversify my investments. W...

have you met people who you feel drain you, do not like you for whatever reason is? How do you feel after that? Unfortunately, I met these kind of people and it kind hard and suffocating you. You just feel that this person do not like you and give you bad energy and in result, you feel hurt in the end ...How do you deal with this kind of people? For me, I try to avoid them as much as possible and focus on something else. Some will face this person and deal with it, but for me, as I have a very simple mindset, whereby if I like it, I work for it, and if I hate it, I avoid it at any cost ... because I am afraid by me face on, it will create more hostility and problems, so I will avoid it. But those who know me, know that I will work diligently on the things that I have been assigned to, it just I do not have the energy or capability to kiss people asses, to talk freely and share everything about me because I ended up feel drain and tiring myself ...I have low self confidence you see,...

2017 has been a very challenging year to me, heartache, difficulties, and yet dreams are fulfilled .... But there are so many things I learn and one of the most profound thing I learnt is that whatever your circumtances are, do not stop ... do not stop do what are good for you ... just don't ...keep on moving and avoid things that make you uncomfortable ...even though at times, you have to lie about it, in order to avoid conflict within yourself and of course people surround you. One thing I learn is that in life, you will meet people that make you feel uncomfortable, depending on your situation, some people you will face head on, but as I do not like confrontation, I will try my hardest to avoid it, even though in the end I feel left out, but I fill it up with something else ... be creative, don't caught up with your feelings of pity and sadness, because there are so many new things you can learn to do and focus .. like learning to budgeting and focusing to improve your fina...

People change, but why they are changing? Sometimes people change because of something that happen to them, that only them knows about, but people change because of reasons. The easiest cause of change is because that person has been hurt again and again and for this, he or she decided enough is enough. Its better to walk alone than to be hurt, than to compromise oneself for somethings that is hurting or not beneficial, as it much better to focus on something that is good and beneficial to oneself than to force to like something or to be include in something forcefully. Whatever the choice that the person takes, there must be pro and cons, but it is decision taken to suit oneself, as that person mature enough to make his or her decision.  The decision to change, hopefully it is a right decision, to make the changer a better person than what she used to be ... to be more confident and good in her job, and able to attract right people into her life.

wahhhh, and for the last few months, I have been through some moments that I hate .... and yet, I still can walk on.... but with heartache and strong hard beat. I do not know why, but I know there must be because of something. So I decided to take actions ... First by telling to Allah and let it out and then throw everything out that related to the persons that related to that heartache. For the time being, it work and as I read the more I hate the more I will attract it, so, I decided to let it go and do not want to think about it. Let them be. There is nothing much that I can do by the way. But I can choose how to respond to it, by keep smiling and walking and ignoring.Focus on things that I can focus on and should focus on.

I've learnt it is ok to sad To lose something that your heart rejected it Even though at times, you don't understand why I've learnt to walk alone To learn on my own To make my own decision Even though it is lonely and scary But, you have to follow your guts I've learnt to be with people who used you Who don't appreciate what you've done Because in life, never expect anything in return I've learnt to be thankful every little things that You have, Because in reality, it cost so much to have that, I've learnt to live with my weaknesses My weirdeness that make me don't have many friends, ' Don't know how to mingle and socialize Because that is me ... as much I want, I cannot change just to fit in,

Life is not always about a big picture or what lies ahead ... Life is also about all small things that we do in life ... Wake up at 6 am every morning, praying, hoping, telling the One, and do the things that we normally do, boil water, make breakfast, clean up the mess, and if you have cildren, oh, how wonderful it is to wake up with your own, the gift of life... Well, not all can have all that, so, be appreciate all the things that you and I have. I wont way it a little because some one or some one else will not see it as small ... A comfortable bed, food, clean water, parents, air to breath, healthy body, a laptop, an internet... so many to list , thus, I am thankful to be wake up this beautiful morning with a faith, with a roof under my head, food, water, to live my life. Life is beautiful .... and I am thankful for it.

Its December 2016, a month left before the end of 2016 .... wow, what a year to me..... Looking back, nothing much happen, but emotionally, I am exhausted ... I dream of a new place far from the current situation I living in now .... but it just a dream, as I have my obligations here, back home. Its been emotional ride, ups and down and weirdly it revolves people around me, and not so much of me..... But more how do I react to the situation that happen around me ... Its been a great journey, but really taking tolls to my mind and emotion. Its ok not to like someone, but do not do bad things to them, even bad mouth them ... because you just knew that person is toxic to you, if you cannot help someone, do not be their poison ... Actually, when you do not like the person, the other person knew, and it depends on how th eother person responded, either to run away or just quiet or retaliate. I used to have a feeling to retaliate, but I found out that harm will be much on me, then...