Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

It can never work , isn't? Because things can never enough, there will be more and more things that I will want. Especially when you are down, and you wnat to do things or buy things with the hope that it will make you satisfy or relief from whatever grief that you have, but, sadly, it will not work. It will work for a while, because I know. I did it a few times. I do not feel relief. But, I do not feel guilty about spending money that I should use to pay loan. I'm not yet in a bad situation, but I know, I going to need the money in the future, but I chose temporary relief. How to be satisfied or te be relief from the heart pain? Travel is one of the way, but time os not on my side. It even hard for me to focus on my study now. But I love writing, I guess, I will feel better after this. Hopefully. I just bought this. Lenovo Ideapad Yoga 11'

Used to be, I hate traveling. The idea of packing up, and thinking of what to bring, what will happen during the journey, what if I left something important, what if something happen at home while I was traveling, makes me hate travelling, until, last year, I travel to Beijing and it so much fun. It is really really fun. I never thought that I will go outside of my country home. I wish to, but I never think that it will come true. Last year, was the turning point in my life. Turn out, the journey was really fun. So eye opening and it felt really great. I want to do it again. Now, when I travel, there is no more if. I just walk on and bring what I think I might need and try to live in the moment. Appreciated the moment at that time, at different place, and a different wind, sky, air. It so refreshing and eye opening. It so fun to meet new people, talk and share differences experiences that they have. It makes me see a wider perspective of life and life is actually really fun. I got ...

What should I do when I know someone hated me? Ignore it or face it? It much easier to ignore than to face it. But, it isn't good in the long run... isn't? Because it will keep repeating it. What if I do not have the courage to face it? The thing is, why hate in the first place? Hate can come because of so many reasons, and sometimes unthinkable reasons too. Because the flesh call herat, is so hard to predict and tame. It requires a lot of work, and time and patience. Thus, what should I do? Train the heart to be patience about it and just walk on. Even in the course of being patience, I will feel frustrated, hurt and can easily cry, but that's ok, because that is the process of becoming strong, isn't? Whatever it is, just keep on walking, do the right and good things, and be patience, and as Muslim, keep on zikr, it helps the heart to be calm. I got this from the ideal dreamers page, just sharing it here, just because I think it is related to the things I a...

Have you ever thought of that? Whether the decision that you take is it the best decision you should do? What if in the process, something happen, and turn out what you decide is a bad decision. What if, actually there are better options, you should just be a little patient, and more good things, will come. What if, that good things never come? Then, you compare your situation with other people, and turn out, you do make terrible decision. If only you know earlier, and follow the footsteps of those people, you will be much happier now. Don't you think so? Then all kind of regrets come at you in full force. You regret the decision that you make. If only, I delay my gratification, save, and maybe, I have finish paying my loan now. If only, and if and a lot more if. But, what if you stop thinking the if? you realized your mistake, so, repair it, not regretting the past things that happened. I am responsible in the situation that I am. there will be people who are ...

Have you ever in a situation, you keep on thinking and thinking and thinking and end up of not doing it? I do and it is not good. Because in the end, you could miss it an opportunity. So, before this I wrote whether or not to continue my master degree. So, I end up of doing it and I am loving it, even though so many obstacles and my mind keep thinking whether I can finish it. See, just beginning and hesistation has coming back at full force. Not a good thing. Studying is a good thing, and I am capable of doing it, even though, truthfully I will face many obstacles along the way. But it is expected, so, what I ahve to do just keep on moving and focus on the proses and enjoy it. Wish me luck everyone. By the way, I want to make extra money, so, I make a facebook page, please support me, the page is about heart .. https://www.facebook.com/CalmHeartStrongHeart

So I have decided to continue my master degree. Actually, I should have done it earlier, but, I kept  delaying it, until last March, I've decided to pursue. But due to the situation that happened in my country now, that is, the increasing of oil prices, the hesitations have come back with full force. The thing is, the place of study is like one and half journey from my work place and with toll, it is pricey already, but with oil price is increasing, wow, I cannot imagine the trouble and burden that I get myself into. But, I have paid the fees for this semester, and even register for the subjects, and the class will start next week, I know I have to do it. But, there are so many doubt and worries in me. Ok, the reasons that I want to pursue my education 1. I am way too comfortable with my current situation. If there is nothing force me to go out and do something, I will be expand bodily and my mind become smaller. 2. I want to have master, because the duration for me to work w...

People only be nice to you when they need something from you? But when yo decline it and unable to fulfill their needs, then they resent towards you? Or worst, even if you say yes to your demands, after they get what they wanted, they will still ignore you? Then, where is the sincerity? This is only means that if you do this, you are using people for your own benefits. It is wrong. Hmmm, And this also means that you do not handle rejection very well. But, rejection is part of life. So what happen next? Keep on smiling and pray that you will not encounter this kind of situation again.