Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

It is from a person who just went through an emergency and money is really important. You can never predict when you are going to face this kind of emergency situation. Yesterday I was having a terrible headache. And it lead to throw up every time I walk or try to wake up. And until now, I felt like spinning around. Luckily for me, my parents live an hour from my rent house. After unable to stand the pain, I asked them to come to my house and helped me. My father brought me to the Clinique, and during that time, I do not have cash to pay for the medicine, and luckily my father does. For me it was embarrassing. Most of my money currently in the bank. And bank an hour journey from my place. When they say about emergency money, I think it also meant handy cash in hand. Especially when you live in a place secluded and far from bank and town.   And of course the clinic that I went to is a private clinic, means need to use a lot of money too. Ohh, it was horrible. 

For the past nine days, I’ve been having a time of my life, idle sitting at home. Not exactly doing nothing, but not going anywhere. The thought have to go anywhere is not really my liking, because I always had to go outside and drive my car around. Well, I got my wish to just stay at home. But starting this evening, I have to go back to reality, to go back to my rent house, and start to work hard. I do work during these holidays, mostly online, but I won’t have so many free time after this. My other commitments require my attention. I’m enjoying my holidays. I get a lot of rest and eat a lot delicious food, especially cook by my mom. But this is it. I have to stop resting and work toward my dreams.

Wow, what a day. I know and have read about many things about online earning and the only that works for me is writing. Well, not really good, but still able to earn some. Selling is not my thing.   But still. I still put an effort to it. So yesterday, when I open my amazon associate , it so good to see that I able to do some selling. Hmm… it is indeed a good feelings. I hope to do more after this. The only thing I need is consistency, concentration and good feeling. Well, by good feelings I mean whatever comes to me, I will still able to smile and work on it. I also liking the fact that this blog has followers. Wow…, never imagine that. Used to be, I do not know what to write, and now, I just write whatever comes to my mind and heart. J Have a great day everyone. 

Me… me… me…. I need help….. Ohhh…. The reason being? I do not like going to shopping mall. I felt awkward. It so far away from my place. I live and work at rural area. And now, whenever I want to go somewhere, I have to drive myself. It so hassle to find a palce to park, and driving is not my liking. Therefore, for me It so much better just sitting in front of laptop and choose the product. Sometimes, the product that I never think of having as at times you will find things that you never encounter seeing. Like last month, I bought a sauna belt at rm2, less than a dollar, but including the price of posting, the sum is rm20, around usd6. But then, I cannot used the belt because it so hot. Hehehehe…. Weirdly enough, I know window shopping or shopping helps me to lose weight something that I need it. As when shopping, we will walk around, and the bigger shopping mall, the better. It force you to walk a lot. And when you felt unsatisfied, you force yourself to walk again to search thin...

Hmmm….. I always have bad luck with friends. That’s why I’m afraid to build attachment towards people.  Once I’ve become closer, things will happen in a way that, that relationship will be broken in the middle.   It really hurt and I’ve been through that so many times. I wonder where is my mistakes are, I do not have other people specialty, good at conversation. I’m suck at it. I know that is my weaknesses, but other than that, I’m nice. If looks and appearance become an issue, well then I’m out. Now I realized that no matter how much goodness you put or give people, please do not expect anything in return, or else you will feel hurt. It just kind weird that, that you do not know where is the mistake is, and suddenly your relationship become cold. And I, once the relationship become that way, I felt hurt.. But I won’t retaliate, or do something equally hurt, I just ignore. I won’t be able be talkative as I used to be, and I have to avoid you as much as possible. But, I will...

Have you ever felt that you prefer to work alone? I do. And I still do, but there are times when I found out that working with people is much better and fun. Used to be, I do not like working with people because I always left out. Seems like I'm a weirdo and it makes me really hard to able to mix with people. Thus resulting in my low self esteem or contributing to my low self confidence problem. I do not know which one.  But then, I've met with people who laugh with me, and help me along the way. I do not feel sad anymore. I do not scared with people anymore. Yes, the problem of communication is there as I'm not used to talk freely with people. I also kind a person who always blurt out wrong things at the wrong time. Moreover it didn't help to have a terrible social skill. But i do not stop trying. I know the fundamental rules when establishing relationship with people, good intention and do not lie. If you do not want people to know your dark secret, just quite abo...

A recent problem arised at home…. And now my nephew and niece are at home, staying with my parents, and went to school at mt parents place. The scenario isn’t pretty. As my parents going to visit my other brother for a few days, now, I have to take care of these children. It was tough and I salute parents out there. Even to take care of these children, there were times I felt so angry and my voice rise. Then, it struck me…. These children, they already in trauma after having so many things happened and I adding more stress in their life. I pity with them, I do… but it not easy. I also realizing the situation that my parents has to go through. Life will not be simpler as it used to. We have to do a lot adjustment and chamges. It seems that this year will be another year full of challenges and hopes. Praying and hoping that everything will went smoothly and succesfully.