Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

 Because once, I was a person who like to prepare for in case situation, thinking, that I might need it in the future, thus, I always buy unnecessary things, that end up I do not have the opportunity to use the item, and I wasted so many money, time and energy for all athat, and maybe contribute to the pollution .. If only I follow my parents footsteps, especially my father who only use the things that he already have, buy the cheapest items he could find, maybe, by now, I have extra money in my bank account ... because I was greedy ... It not easy to turn on back time, thus, I have to accept that I already went through that phase and I regret it, so now, I should be more careful in my spending and behaviour in using the money... Money is not easy to come by for me .. maybe for some, it is easy for others, but not for me ...   

  The thing is, you on your own, nobody care about you, so, you need to care about you more than you think, that other people care about what you do ..   What I mean is that, people already ahs so much on their plate to even care about you .. So what you mess up .. it pass, people will laugh, or joke for it, but only for a little while only, not too long, and learn to take it with a pich of salt   Learn to let it go, learn to let it pass .. as life will keep going and move on, and so should you and your mind ..   You see, there are so many other things that you can focus on, instead of what other people might think or what could have happen …   Have you drink water ? have you wash your face, take a bath, clean your room or organize your things? You see, you might think that these are all small matter, but, these are big matters   .. This what could help you stop from doing all the over thinking that you keep on thinking that actually d...

 I used to be this person who wants everything to be complete, everything must have in that instances, or else, i feel, angry, sad and temper. It somehow makes me lose my money, buying unnecessary things, and have  a freak mind .. its either I do it, or I do not do it.. It makes me feel anxious all the time, as I want things to be complete, everything to be in order, or I become this person who is moody and angry all the time. Turn out, I do not have to be that way. because life still can going on smoothly without everything to be in perfect order or without I push myself too hard to have it all.  Because having that mindset isn't' going to help me, but actually making me lose sleep, making me questioned myself , and making me miserable, when  actually life is simple, and wonderful. Life can be still happen as good as possible without me having everything in order. because what I have now, is enough to get me through the day. I always remind myslef, that I have enoug...

  Before this, I was sceptical, scared   and confused. I was in a mess.   It didn’t bring me any good at all as I was feeling anxious all the time and wondering whether you are true in your messages .. and then, after I lash out everything that I am not satisfied … I thought, I will be okay, calm … but turn out, I am getting worst. I cannot stop thinking about you, and so, I decided to run back to you. I confess to you. The thing is, it will be hard for both of us. We are not compatible at all. But, I pursue, with the hope that you are kind, because to me, you do like kind. The only compatibility that you and I have, is because our houses are near with each other. I believe that will be the main reason…. As for now, I am trying to make this work, because I want to have a family of my own. What I wish in husband…. I am not sure that I can find it in you … because the thing that I most look for in a husband is the ability for the guy to provide for me. Provide me wi...

Courage is the ability of oneself to do things, no matter how small it is … But, not many of us have the courage to do things as others do, and as it shown, the older we get, the less courage we have … Be like a kid, who do not seem to be afraid of anything, and do whatever they want to do. But, as an adult, especially as the age is nearly forty and above, our risk tolerance is getting small and smaller … So, the question is, is the courage come in within oneself or is it need to be built up? The answer will be, the courage needs to be built up, by oneself, through hard work, sacrifices, belief, confidence, and the list could go on … Why the courage needs to be built? See the differences between a politician and an average working man? What is their difference, beside level of knowledge, money, and appearance? - à the answer will be the courage to be a man of people. A man with enough courageous to walk in front of people and talk about their manifest...