Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

 I used to be this person who wants everything to be complete, everything must have in that instances, or else, i feel, angry, sad and temper. It somehow makes me lose my money, buying unnecessary things, and have  a freak mind .. its either I do it, or I do not do it.. It makes me feel anxious all the time, as I want things to be complete, everything to be in order, or I become this person who is moody and angry all the time. Turn out, I do not have to be that way. because life still can going on smoothly without everything to be in perfect order or without I push myself too hard to have it all.  Because having that mindset isn't' going to help me, but actually making me lose sleep, making me questioned myself , and making me miserable, when  actually life is simple, and wonderful. Life can be still happen as good as possible without me having everything in order. because what I have now, is enough to get me through the day. I always remind myslef, that I have enoug...

  Before this, I was sceptical, scared   and confused. I was in a mess.   It didn’t bring me any good at all as I was feeling anxious all the time and wondering whether you are true in your messages .. and then, after I lash out everything that I am not satisfied … I thought, I will be okay, calm … but turn out, I am getting worst. I cannot stop thinking about you, and so, I decided to run back to you. I confess to you. The thing is, it will be hard for both of us. We are not compatible at all. But, I pursue, with the hope that you are kind, because to me, you do like kind. The only compatibility that you and I have, is because our houses are near with each other. I believe that will be the main reason…. As for now, I am trying to make this work, because I want to have a family of my own. What I wish in husband…. I am not sure that I can find it in you … because the thing that I most look for in a husband is the ability for the guy to provide for me. Provide me wi...

Courage is the ability of oneself to do things, no matter how small it is … But, not many of us have the courage to do things as others do, and as it shown, the older we get, the less courage we have … Be like a kid, who do not seem to be afraid of anything, and do whatever they want to do. But, as an adult, especially as the age is nearly forty and above, our risk tolerance is getting small and smaller … So, the question is, is the courage come in within oneself or is it need to be built up? The answer will be, the courage needs to be built up, by oneself, through hard work, sacrifices, belief, confidence, and the list could go on … Why the courage needs to be built? See the differences between a politician and an average working man? What is their difference, beside level of knowledge, money, and appearance? - à the answer will be the courage to be a man of people. A man with enough courageous to walk in front of people and talk about their manifest...

Do you have extra space like room in your house, or maybe extra house that you do not use? Do not let it be idle, and make it helps you to earn income for you ...it is by sharing your space ... It can be just a room, but , please make sure you decorate the house or the room nicely, comfortably, and beautifully before you share it with others. And please make sure you keep the place clean, as what others treat you right, share a clean space with you ... In return, you will get paid, isn't it good? I mean to earn extra with something you already have? In order to safely received a guest that you is believable safe, and being safeguard by good policy, make sure you choose a good reputable company to help you get the guests that willing to pay for your place. For me, I will choose AIRBNB as it is a good reputable company which is known helped million of guests around the world to find and book a good place to stay in. AIRBNB gave alternatives for people especially traveler ...

As I was reminiscing my youth and planning for my future, turn out, it wasn't easy at all.... It requires hard work, persistence, knowledge, help, determination, time, and the list go on and on ... Once, I was also believer of quick cas, get things easily, and turn out, I wasted a lot of money in the process, when the truth is, to achieve something it requires hard work and persistence. Success won't come overnight, it requires continuous effort with plan ... not exactly perfect plan, but a plan ... A plan of what you actually want to have, and how you want to achieve it, and why  you want to have it. For me, the reasons that I want to do it is because I need to do something, that give benefits to my mind, heart and body and at the same time, helping me to help my family. When you have reasons, you will avoid the attitude of taking it for granted, because then you understand how life is precious that need to fully use it for your own happiness and people around you. ...

When I look back at my previous age, turn out, I wasted on so many things, times, energy, money, emotion and the list could go on and on .... I feel bad ... I always have this emotion that this will not enough, until, I am planning to put roll bed in my car in case I have to sleep somewhere that I do not plan ... I am planning way too much ahead, and I unable to see what is in front of me, to savour moment, to enjoy the time that I have now, and I am worry about what could happen in the future. Then books, as I am a teacher, I buy anything that they sell in the bookstore that could done day be beneficial for my teaching and again, I wasted as most of the books, I unable to use. There are so many books that still not being touch and open by me. then, there is gadget tat I kind being influence to buy, but seldom use, then there are kitchenware that I bought that I hardly use any. turn out, I only need a little bit of items for daily use. So, my motto nowadays is to use what I h...

Be that bigger person that no matter what happen, she rises above it .. even when she is alone … She does not want to be alone, but situation makes her to be alone most of the times … She knows, alone isn’t good … as what she experienced herself …. She is very pitiful … But, she decided to rise above it, and be happy by herself … Actually, it because, she has no other choices … Past experiences have make her as she is today … And she does hoping to be that person … The person who is brave, confident, But, she unable to, No matter how much she imagine it in her head .. So, what she do? She keep on walking while looking down … Why ? Because she lacks confidence to face people around her … But … She work on herself … She buys assets,   she saves her income She takes care of her health, mind and heart She learns to be happy on her own … Because at the end, she is on her own … And she knows, in order for her to able to face people, She must ...