Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Used to be, I was this kind of person who thinks that I want to be rich, so, I won't mind work hard, learn about money and investment and be stingy as much as possible. I still that, but now, much better. Turn out, life is fill with pressure and the plan that I planned for myself, will not happen according to the plan. Turn out, be at home, relaxing, be with my parents, gardening, reading are much more fun than just thinking about money. Turn out, the relationship with people will have ups and downs and there will be time, I will lose and gain new friends. That is life. I'm stop chasing now, and now, I'm enjoying life and do the things that I can do. I have to accept things that will never in my reach, but it won't stop me from pursuing it. I just have to keep on walking, because, I've been in the place where I want to run and run to chase my dreams. it hard, tiring and exhausting. Totally not good for body and mind. But, now, I look around me, and be grateful t...

I like photographing, but I do not like people taking picture of me. And it's been so long, that I wanted to buy a new good camera. Then, the determination to own one, came. So, I search, and search, read and watching review commentator about camera for quite some time. At first, I want to buy DSLR, but it is bulky. So, I ended up buying Canon s95, which is three years ago, and it works wonder. I love it. Even until now, it still capture great picture. But now, Canon produces new line of S110 I think. Much more functions too. But, as I'm ready to move to something expensive, I bought a new camera. Get the best price from amazon. Click Here As I want to take great picture, I read more on camera, comparing here and there, and I got my conclusion. My new camera is a mirrorless camera or some even call compact system camera of four third camera. After doing so many research, I make my conclusion to buy Olympus EPL-5. It not a newest version, but I read good review about i...

Do the right thing Even though your heart is aching, Do the right thing, Even you see no point of doing it Do the right thing thing, Even you other better option which is not right, Do the right thing, Even you are lazy and tired, Do the right thing Even if you are scared, Do the right thing, Even there is no guarantee the favor will return Do the right thing, Even you going to hurt someone in the process Do the right thing, Even you know the consequences will not be good... But, what is right? My definition of right might different from you, but always choose the right thing.

Actually, it is not easy to be kind, because you have to control the heart, control your tongue and action. It much easier to say whatever that comes to your mind than keep it to yourself. Well, people said that it not good to keep things bottled up in your heart, so say what is in your mind. But, it is not good. To many things will be ruin and jeopardize and every actions got consequences. It much better to ignore it and have an ear where itw ill go one side and immediately go out to other side without the need for it to stop by in the mind or heart, because it has consequences. Kind, actually easy, and much better, but it requires a lot of strength. Because turn out, doing bad things, is much easier and more satisfaction at faster rate than doing the nice things. But ....

Is it possible? Well, it is, through loan, and with the magic of credit card, the loan are easily accessible. It is a wonderful thing. To easily get the things that I want with this plastic card. The joy is even though momentarily only, but because of the temptation, just use the card will bring happiness. Why do I talk about this.... because I'm in the middle of the process of doing it, wanted to spend the money that I do not have... But, the truth is, I've used it many times. Like, my study for degree that I got help from education loan that I still paying until now, my car, my house, and some other things. So, it is not weird. But, there is a danger behind it, especially when the person who doing the loan unable to pay for it. Then, there will be a problem. I know about prudent spending, and how the situations are currently and the need to think about the future. I know all that, but, why the heart still do not want to listen? Now, in times like this, I feel jealous ...

Whatever happens, just keep your head high, smile and walk on. If you want to talk about it, talk, and if you want to cry, cry. But, do not give up. Actually, it so easy to say than to do it, to face it, because it so hurting inside. The heart keep asking, why, why, and why. What do I do wrong that I got this? I know, there are reasons for everything that happen, thus, I just need to accept it with open heart. If you a kind a person who will fight for your right, by all means, do it, but I don't. I am not good with confrontation and I learnt that smile is the best answer for everything. I wish things were different and I wish to find out where my mistakes are, but I do not have the energy and will to do so. Or maybe, I need some attitude change. Maybe. For now, I cannot do much. I can't. I do not have the capacity to even think about it.

It can never work , isn't? Because things can never enough, there will be more and more things that I will want. Especially when you are down, and you wnat to do things or buy things with the hope that it will make you satisfy or relief from whatever grief that you have, but, sadly, it will not work. It will work for a while, because I know. I did it a few times. I do not feel relief. But, I do not feel guilty about spending money that I should use to pay loan. I'm not yet in a bad situation, but I know, I going to need the money in the future, but I chose temporary relief. How to be satisfied or te be relief from the heart pain? Travel is one of the way, but time os not on my side. It even hard for me to focus on my study now. But I love writing, I guess, I will feel better after this. Hopefully. I just bought this. Lenovo Ideapad Yoga 11'