Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Used to be, I like to keep things on my own. I do not like to talk because I think no one cares. Or they only listen just to get back to you. But lucky for me, I have great friends who do listen to me and help me to get through the tough times that I faced. They have been very kind and supporting and help me to see the things that I cannot see.  Well, even though sometimes I am having difficulties to accept  what they said were true, but they were there and every time I need them. For them I am grateful.Moreover their words and descriptions are very enlightening and powerful. I do not need many friends. What I need is friend who is going to listen to me and accepting me who I am and in the same time helping me to improve in so many things and discover so many great things in life, that there are so much in life that I am not aware. (Usually in the last part, they didn't aware that they did that and for that I am lucky, I have  them. I am so grateful...

This post is related to my frustration to me.. Once upon a time, I was this person who so energetic about life and want to face every challenges possible, but now, I hate it. I prefer to stay at home, and do nothing. Then, I was this person who is ambitious, but now... after I found out that life is actually really challenging and those lucky enough will get it. Then she prefer to settle for less. I do not know what went wrong, but I cannot writing freely like I used to and I become the person that I myself feel weird. Sarcasm and hypocrisy is ok to me... oh oh... In a way, I also found good thing about the changing, but I felt weird and my brain just freezing from thinking about it... What happen to me? Maybe middle age crisis. :(

Money is needed every time... do u keep track where your money goes? I thought that will be a piece of cake, but turn out, it so hard to keep track of the money that I used until i left with nothing... and I started to wonder, where has my money gone? huhuhuhu... Between earn more money and be frugal, I think being frugal is easier, because as a working person, my salary is fix and sometimes I have to take out my own money for my work, but nope. Being frugal is not easy also... There are too many temptations in life and things that I have to buy because I have to. Like example, a good and nice cloth. Well, I am so not into fashion and many times, I do not care what I wear, as long as comfortable there, but then when I went to a meeting, I found out that I was lacking and my appearance is so... oh oh... then, I know I have to invest in this area. I am a woman, and make up should be my friend, and dear, before putting make up, you should have a nice skin. Luckily my friend is so nice...

A friend of mine opened his wife's underwear drawer and picked up a silk paper wrapped package: 'This, - he said - isn't any ordinary package.' He unwrapped the box and stared at both the silk paper and the box. 'She got this the first time we went to New York , 8 or 9 years ago. She has never put it on , was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is it. He got near the bed and placed the gift box next to the other clothing he was taking to the funeral house, his wife had just died. He turned to me and said: 'Never save something for a special occasion. Every day in your life is a special occasion'. I still think those words changed my life. Now I read more and clean less. I sit on the settee without worrying about anything and just relax. I spend more time with my family & friends and less at work. Money is to be spent not saved. I understood that life should be a source of experience to be lived up to, not survived through. I no long...

Make other people happy, and you will be happy. Make other people sad, and you will be sad. These totally not in any way is being nosy because making other people happy doesn't need to know who that person is. People tend to make other people happy when the other person has something extra like money, title and is famous. But it should not be that way. Why making other people happy because of reason? However, when we see people less fortunate, and we are more fortunate, then we should make them happy. Just by giving a little that we are capable. Do u realize that it takes a lot of money and time to make rich people happy? But I guess it much easier to make people sad than to make people happy. Oh please, if you cannot other people happy, at least do not make people hate you by you making other people sad.

The things that you want to do, do it immediately because you do not know when you going to do it anyway. Delaying is not a good attitude. What if the things that you delay is mportant and because this bad habit,oh oh... Well, actually I am talking about me. I just have to finish three weeks work in one day, which is not fun at all. I know that I could do the task in time, but because this horrible and bad attitude, I suffer the consequences. I have to restrain myself from doing anything else until my work finish even from taking a bath. Other consequences of delaying, of course yo going to lose precious time and money too. So to me, please, do your work on schedule. No matter what people are doing, me myself are responsible of the action I take, even to delay a minute could end up me losing big things. Who knows, right? So remember people, time is precious.

I do not like it. The work seems endless and there are always new things come up to do. With work, life and family. And that i do not even put about my own personal life, my own time and friends. Wow, it is tiring and hectic. With work and age come responsibility. I put age because the older I get, the more responsibility I have. Like when I was young, my parents who took care of me, but now it is vice versa. I have to take care of my parents. It is not like my parents are not healthy or I have to support them, it just I have to make them happy and help whenever I can. It is time for me to repay back their kindness to me. then, lets talk about work. I am a teacher, supposedly my work is easy. But it is not. I do not come to class and talk and talk, I have to find ways to help my pupils understand my teaching and trust me to find the things, learn and make the teaching good is a lot more work than just teaching itself. Moreover the after teaching work also a lot. Luckily there are m...