Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

So I have decided to continue my master degree. Actually, I should have done it earlier, but, I kept  delaying it, until last March, I've decided to pursue. But due to the situation that happened in my country now, that is, the increasing of oil prices, the hesitations have come back with full force. The thing is, the place of study is like one and half journey from my work place and with toll, it is pricey already, but with oil price is increasing, wow, I cannot imagine the trouble and burden that I get myself into. But, I have paid the fees for this semester, and even register for the subjects, and the class will start next week, I know I have to do it. But, there are so many doubt and worries in me. Ok, the reasons that I want to pursue my education 1. I am way too comfortable with my current situation. If there is nothing force me to go out and do something, I will be expand bodily and my mind become smaller. 2. I want to have master, because the duration for me to work w...

People only be nice to you when they need something from you? But when yo decline it and unable to fulfill their needs, then they resent towards you? Or worst, even if you say yes to your demands, after they get what they wanted, they will still ignore you? Then, where is the sincerity? This is only means that if you do this, you are using people for your own benefits. It is wrong. Hmmm, And this also means that you do not handle rejection very well. But, rejection is part of life. So what happen next? Keep on smiling and pray that you will not encounter this kind of situation again.

Today, I de -cluttered  my stuffs in my room. Throw away all clothes, and rearranging all documents that I have. And there are so many of it. But now I do feel more ease. I wonder, where these stuffs come in the first place. Then, I remember, I was once in the phase of buying things that I think that I might need it, but at the end, I do not use it at all. So now I have to get rid of it. But then, I have this thought, what a waste, especially financially. If only I save the money, I could have more in my saving now. Then, are you an over precautious person? I am. If i have to prepare something, I prepare more with this thought, just in case that I might need it, but when the truth, the things that I prepare is already more than enough. Because maybe I hate to do things repeatedly. I guess, i just have to accept things as they are, and not trying to fix everything. Because currently I am on a very string budget, I have decided to be extra careful with things that I buy now. On...

I'm 30 this age... it so unlike me to tell the world my age... heheheheh, but why should I shame with my age? It just a number. So, about 30, what about it that special? Many my friends are already married and have children of their own. My time hasn't come yet. So, what I do now is to focus on my current situation - to improve me. Life is about so many things, but the thing that I pursue, is calmness. Calm about that I believe in my religion, I have family that I love, a stable career, friends, and more. The list could go on. I am thankful, so I want to focus on what I have, instead of focusing on the things that I do not have and the things that concern me, that if I do not tackle it now, it will become  a big burden to me in the future, and that is paying off my loans. I read somewhere that if I focus on that thing, that thing will coming back to me. Like I am focus on loans, so I will be getting more loans. So, I focus to earn more money and I can pay off my loans....

I am kind a person who scare with rejection. That's why I rarely asked favour from people, because I said that people will said no. For me, when someone said no, that mean, that person hate me. No matter what their reason is. But, that was wrong. Because that way of thinking only shows that I have problem with self confidence. I guess that's true, because I used to have a low self confidence. But now, I started to be more mature and brave. Why afraid with no? It just an answer, not the end of the world. There are more chances next time. Why must think negatively? Think positively. I always think that when people say no to me, the problem is me, not them. Well, I do not have problem with me, so, if other people has the problem with me, why should I bother? why change into someone that people will like? Well, it is hard, but, as long as what I do is not illegal or wrong or even disturbed people, I will keep being me. Even though only a few people will be friend w...

Have you ever feel like you missing out? - Ohh, why didn't I think I that? - If only I start saving easrly ... - I should have continue my master? - Ohh, I missed out the sale, I cannot get what I want ..... and the list could go on and on... Then, you see that your peers are doing so much better than you, and having the things that you want, and this will make you feel more irritated. So, what are you going to do? Chances are, you want to chase everything in one go. try to make up everything that you lost. You plan, then, you work hard. But after a few attempts, you start to feel burn out. Then, you quit. I post this because I've been through this, personally and in career also. I felt that I missed many things, and I try to gain back what I think were supposed to be mine. But, it is not right to do that. Because it will drain my energy and I felt exhausted. I do not say that it not possible, but it is really hard. In pursuing the things that I missed, I might I miss...

Some people find it easy for them to earn online, but some not. I do managed to earn some from the internet, but it is not until I can give uo my full time job or even concentrate so much time in it. But I do learn a lot of things from the internet, especially online earning. Because the main reason for me to be online is to earn money, but turn out, internet got so many temptations and I've been drawn to it, so many times. Many times, I forgot my main intention. I also lost money too, trusting sites or forum that promises many beautiful things, stating that it is easy to earn, and bla, bla, and I jump right into it, urghh, and it happens a few times. I do not know whether what I've earn so far is enough to cover the money that I spend on the internet, and of course, it excluding the necessities. As I've learnt my lesson and I found out that I actually earn through free sites, that I do not have to pay, and most of the sites are earning through writing and ...