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Time To Get to Work

After 2 days of doing absolutely nothing beneficial to me, mostly see old videos of the group that I like, read a teenage fanfics and listening to songs, I decided that it’s time for me to be serious back. More over, currently I am out of job and that’s mean no income for me. At least writing for my blog will avoid me from being idle and distract my thought from my problems.

My problems are, I am scared I do not do well in my initiative to have driving license. I know I am a slow learner, and I hate driving, but my dad keep insisting that I take it. And moreover, I know the importance for me to have driving license.

Second, I am scared I fail to get my KPLI, that mean I do not get to become a teacher. KPLI is a test for someone to become a teacher in my country ( Malaysia). Most of them said that KPLI is for unemployed degree holders. But I also read that some choose KPLI because they cannot stand their current job. As for me, both. People say teaching is an easy job, but I’ve been a teacher before, even for two months, it takes a lot of effort to be good. I do not want to be any teacher, I want to be a good teacher. By the way, I am applying to be an English teacher.

At first I really do not want to be a teacher. It do not seem too challenging for me, but after a lot of discussion with my mom and I felt how real life are, and moreover I’m kind a person who need security in life, and I began really hoping to get it. The problem with me is that many things happen to me accidentally and not because what I plan to be. Most of the time, what I planned rarely happen. Oh I hate that. And always happen that the thing I want will not happen. I mean always. That mean the thing I was hoping for, I will not get it.

Third, by next year, I will be 25. But I never have a boyfriend and many I mean, many of my friends have get married. One of my wish is to become a good wife. Have a lot of children. Hearing news of my friend getting married really sometimes make me frustrated.

I guess all these reasons have made me feel numb and down lately. But time is running out. I need to do something to keep my mind out of these problems.

Right now, it’s become one of my enjoyments to read good fanfic. I really recommend reading the fanfic from ephemeral title an epitome of simplicity. It really, I mean really good. Before this, I am having problem reading in front of computer, but after I read her fic, I become used to sit in front of computers reading for hours. I mean only reading, not typing or drawing. If it involved writing, typing, I used to it long ago. And the author is only 19. I will give the link. At first I read it because the character is from the group I like SS501, but luckily the fic is not disappointing to read. I fact I really recommend anyone to read it.

read here. But you need account to access. It also great site to see and find Korean related actors, actresses, songs, movie and dramas.

One of the habit that I discovered now is that I like to learn about financial planning, debt reduction and wealth management. It really important knowledge for all, especially for me who have a debt and have difficulties to get a job. I will put my knowledge here so that it will keep me motivate to learn this thing.

I also have applied a few jobs. I hope I will get it.

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