Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

 I used to be this person who wants everything to be complete, everything must have in that instances, or else, i feel, angry, sad and temper. It somehow makes me lose my money, buying unnecessary things, and have  a freak mind .. its either I do it, or I do not do it.. It makes me feel anxious all the time, as I want things to be complete, everything to be in order, or I become this person who is moody and angry all the time. Turn out, I do not have to be that way. because life still can going on smoothly without everything to be in perfect order or without I push myself too hard to have it all.  Because having that mindset isn't' going to help me, but actually making me lose sleep, making me questioned myself , and making me miserable, when  actually life is simple, and wonderful. Life can be still happen as good as possible without me having everything in order. because what I have now, is enough to get me through the day. I always remind myslef, that I have enoug...

  Before this, I was sceptical, scared   and confused. I was in a mess.   It didn’t bring me any good at all as I was feeling anxious all the time and wondering whether you are true in your messages .. and then, after I lash out everything that I am not satisfied … I thought, I will be okay, calm … but turn out, I am getting worst. I cannot stop thinking about you, and so, I decided to run back to you. I confess to you. The thing is, it will be hard for both of us. We are not compatible at all. But, I pursue, with the hope that you are kind, because to me, you do like kind. The only compatibility that you and I have, is because our houses are near with each other. I believe that will be the main reason…. As for now, I am trying to make this work, because I want to have a family of my own. What I wish in husband…. I am not sure that I can find it in you … because the thing that I most look for in a husband is the ability for the guy to provide for me. Provide me wi...