Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Is it possible? Well, it is, through loan, and with the magic of credit card, the loan are easily accessible. It is a wonderful thing. To easily get the things that I want with this plastic card. The joy is even though momentarily only, but because of the temptation, just use the card will bring happiness. Why do I talk about this.... because I'm in the middle of the process of doing it, wanted to spend the money that I do not have... But, the truth is, I've used it many times. Like, my study for degree that I got help from education loan that I still paying until now, my car, my house, and some other things. So, it is not weird. But, there is a danger behind it, especially when the person who doing the loan unable to pay for it. Then, there will be a problem. I know about prudent spending, and how the situations are currently and the need to think about the future. I know all that, but, why the heart still do not want to listen? Now, in times like this, I feel jealous ...

Whatever happens, just keep your head high, smile and walk on. If you want to talk about it, talk, and if you want to cry, cry. But, do not give up. Actually, it so easy to say than to do it, to face it, because it so hurting inside. The heart keep asking, why, why, and why. What do I do wrong that I got this? I know, there are reasons for everything that happen, thus, I just need to accept it with open heart. If you a kind a person who will fight for your right, by all means, do it, but I don't. I am not good with confrontation and I learnt that smile is the best answer for everything. I wish things were different and I wish to find out where my mistakes are, but I do not have the energy and will to do so. Or maybe, I need some attitude change. Maybe. For now, I cannot do much. I can't. I do not have the capacity to even think about it.