Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

 ### **The Thing Is… Life Needs to Go On, and On… The Continuous Battle of Every Day** Life doesn’t pause for you to catch your breath, does it? The thing is, no matter how exhausted, overwhelmed, or stretched thin we feel, life just… keeps going. There’s no "pause" button to stop the constant demands, no way to step off the treadmill and simply rest. It’s relentless. Every day is a new challenge, a new battle, especially for those of us who struggle with anxiety, low self-confidence, or the need to please others. And yet, we keep pushing forward. We have to, right? But what if the real battle isn’t just about keeping up with life? What if it’s about managing the constant war inside ourselves—the war between who we are and who we think we need to be? #### **The Exhausting Cycle of “Yes”** For those of us who are "yes" people, life is a never-ending series of obligations. It’s the struggle of constantly saying yes, even when every fiber of your being wants to say no....

 I always think how to be calm, as I am kind a person who likes to rush things, and one of the ways I think it is proven effective is by being minimalist, as the less item I have, the less worry I will be and thus less stress.  But the journey towards minimalism isn't walk in the park. It requires persistency and strong will.  Persistence in a way, that this is a life you choose to do, and you have your own why and reasons, and strong will as it really easy to be swayed and forgot your why.  Currently I am on my journey to do this, so I am not be overwhelmed by things, and instead, able to enjoy life.  I will start with my place of work, and my home and i know it will be hard and tedious process, but a process that I must do in order for me to have a good and organized life, with less worry and be calm.

 I am over thinker, who over analyse everything and things have difficult a lot of time. I want to do things, but kept delaying it, postponing it, and nothing good coming out from it. Thus, this morning, starting today, I must change my behaviour and my attitude and my mind setting, to do it, to do and do, things that I want to do, things that can give me benefits, not thinking or indulge myself in things that do not bring any benefits towards me.  I must work hard, be persistent, be strong, because nobody can help me, beside myself.  I hope this motivation will last, as I found out, I have been delaying so much time in over thinking and wasting my time in unnecessary things that do not bring me any benefits at all ... The God, will not change someone fate's until that person work hard on himself.

    Do you have hobby? Hobby is a great to help you avoidng stress and things about life that you do no like. What is your hobby? Mine is gardening, writing and used to, reading. And i guess now watching. Now, I want to talk about gardening. At first I thought gardening is easy, but turn out, it hard, and complicated and complex than I thought it would be. And it cost money to. Now, I am starting to wonder, which is better, just buy the plants or learning to plant it, as gardening, farming, is totally not for the lazy.    Gardening, as I've come to realize, is a hobby that goes beyond just growing plants; it's a journey of patience, understanding, and continuous learning. When I first decided to try my hand at gardening, I assumed it would be a simple and cost-effective way to have beautiful, vibrant plants at home. Little did I know that it would demand much more than just throwing a few seeds into the soil. One of the first lessons I learned was that gardeni...

  Gardening, it is wonderful. It started with my experience as I felt that gardening is awesome as it makes me happy. I still remember planting my first seeds and watching them sprout into seedlings. It was magical! Since then, gardening has become one of my favorite hobbies.   There's just something so satisfying about digging in the dirt, nurturing plants, and watching them grow and produce flowers, vegetables, or herbs. Gardening is a great way to get outdoors, immerse yourself in nature, and create beauty with your own two hands. I love waking up in the morning and stepping outside to see how my garden has transformed overnight. The vibrant colors of blossoms and leaves lift my mood instantly. Tending to my plants and pruning away dead leaves feels almost therapeutic. It's a calming ritual that helps me relax and reduces stress.   One of the best parts of gardening is harvesting fresh fruits, veggies and herbs. There's no comparison to the flavor of garden tomatoes or...

 Today, I woke up and could not continue on with my sleep even though it is holiday...  So, I woke up, did my prayer, cook breakfast and do some cleaning by getting rid of things that unnecessary ... I use these method when trying to clean and declutter my home. 1. Keep what I need in the most easiest place that I could easily reach.  2. Organized my items in most pleasant way possible - because the items are a lot, I have to be creative  3. Get rid of things that I do not use - but, it is had when your husband likes to keep things ...     

 It has been so long since I last posted in this blog.  Maybe I should rewrite back in here considering one of the therapeutic a person can do to deal with daily life challenges is through writing ...  Actually, I have a lot of things in my mind. but I always wait for the right moment, when the truth is, there is no right moment, but just do.  Recently, I always thinking of retire early because I feel that I do not have the energy to run away from things anymore, as that's what I always do, running away from things that I do not feel comfortable of doing.  And it has worked wonder for me, as I avoid drama, walk alone, and do a lot of things without I seek the approval from others.  Things are difficult for me because I am people pleaser, and it is not easy for me to say no  or reject something without I feel guilty about it, even though, it is not a big matter at all.  Life is hard when you have to walk alone and it harder when you have to be unco...