Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Be that bigger person that no matter what happen, she rises above it .. even when she is alone … She does not want to be alone, but situation makes her to be alone most of the times … She knows, alone isn’t good … as what she experienced herself …. She is very pitiful … But, she decided to rise above it, and be happy by herself … Actually, it because, she has no other choices … Past experiences have make her as she is today … And she does hoping to be that person … The person who is brave, confident, But, she unable to, No matter how much she imagine it in her head .. So, what she do? She keep on walking while looking down … Why ? Because she lacks confidence to face people around her … But … She work on herself … She buys assets,   she saves her income She takes care of her health, mind and heart She learns to be happy on her own … Because at the end, she is on her own … And she knows, in order for her to able to face people, She must ...

A life where you feel good about yourself, without the need to have the approval of others of how to live your life. A life where positivity is surround you, without you feel hard to get up in the morning. A life that you feel content of what you have without you feel the need to have more, to buy more to get more. A life where you can smile freely at even one single funny thing. A life where you are glad that you are born today, A life where no matter where the life takes you, you can still smile and keep on walking. A life where less is okay, not having what other people have is okay .. A life where   no jealousy, no greed, no bad feelings towards others existed in your heart. A life where you know that where you are now is where you should be, and that make you feel good. A life where you do not have to contastantly searching what could I do more in order to have my life better, because the truth is what you have now is already enough.

Do you leave a place where you are not comfortable with? I am ... I am good with running from people and places that I feel that I am not comfortable with. I know, at times, my attitude is wrong, but I find that I should feel good instead of stress out being with people that I think may not like me or usually because I have bitter experience with them ... That is why my friend always told me not to think about it, ignore it and do something else, as I am a person who like to over thinking and end up with nothing ... so, I found out that is useless ... so, it is better for me to think positively and do something that is good for me ... The thing is, I am the one who lost, because of this .. I do not know whether it is call anxiety or what, but my calmness and happiness is much more important than struggling to be with people who hurt me. I know with the term, people change, and I should too, and now, I am building myself so I can be more confident and happy.

Because it come effortless, naturally, without need to work hard for it, and only once it gone, then we feel lost … I forgot about feeling grateful, feeling blessing because all I can remember is the heartache, the pain that cause by people, no matter who that people is. A single eye gazing could lead to years of friendship, broken into pieces, because of over thinking, because of intonation, things could go very wrong ....Things have become so complicated and messy, with so many things to do, arrange, plan and look forward to.  Challenges keep coming, but it not always, as at times, there will be rainbows too, bad things will pass, so do good things too ... Be in the present, cause the past has past, and the future is yet to come .. enjoy the moment, believe in good things, be positive, be hopeful and persevere. Always try to do your best in your work, in your life, plan for your future, read a lot, and keep good relationship with people no matter what the reason is....