Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

I remember while I was working and studying at the same time,as I was juggling between both, I worked hard and managed it, even though not very proficient, but I managed. The pressure to do both quiet tough, but because of the desperation, I managed. But now, after I completing my study, I found out that I am slacking off. It takes me a while to complete or do simple task. I prefer to do it all in one basket and thus I take longer time and procrastinate a lot. I do not like it. Sometimes, my mind wonder here and there, and while searching, I found something interesting and I ended not doing my work even thogh previously the same workload only take me a while to complete it. Maybe because I am too free, I become like this.

At the age of 30 ++, it seems to me that I lost my focus now ... maybe because I keep repeating doing the same thing again and again ... there's no thrill anymore. After finishing my master degree, I found life has become a little bit empty with a lot of spare time. Kind weird too that I do not like to watch drama or movie as much I like to do previously and do other hobbies, like cooking or sewing, not really interest me.... maybe because I'm not a very particular person and just like to do how I want to do. Maybe I should start something new or maybe restart back ... just maybe... like people said, there are so many things to look forward and as I am not very sociable person, I think, maybe I should start writing, reading and relearning but doing Phd is totally out of questions for now.

2015 has been very nice to me, very very nice. I earn my master degree, got awards too... wow, I never had an award as best student before. Then, my works run smoothly and there are a few setbacks here and there, but I managed to pass... I learn that it best not too attach with something and accept what it is and move on. No big expectation and people can dream and dream on. Dreaming is free. As for two years, I was busy studying and working, and now, after that ended, I feel kind lonely. It seems that I lost my focus and I do not know what to do. What is my next project and what should I do next. Turn out, I'm so used being busy, that I feel lost when I have not much to focus on. Maybe I should try something new, and do something new.... it just I do not know what that is yet. Hopefully 2016 will be a better year for me.