Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

People only be nice to you when they need something from you? But when yo decline it and unable to fulfill their needs, then they resent towards you? Or worst, even if you say yes to your demands, after they get what they wanted, they will still ignore you? Then, where is the sincerity? This is only means that if you do this, you are using people for your own benefits. It is wrong. Hmmm, And this also means that you do not handle rejection very well. But, rejection is part of life. So what happen next? Keep on smiling and pray that you will not encounter this kind of situation again.

Today, I de -cluttered  my stuffs in my room. Throw away all clothes, and rearranging all documents that I have. And there are so many of it. But now I do feel more ease. I wonder, where these stuffs come in the first place. Then, I remember, I was once in the phase of buying things that I think that I might need it, but at the end, I do not use it at all. So now I have to get rid of it. But then, I have this thought, what a waste, especially financially. If only I save the money, I could have more in my saving now. Then, are you an over precautious person? I am. If i have to prepare something, I prepare more with this thought, just in case that I might need it, but when the truth, the things that I prepare is already more than enough. Because maybe I hate to do things repeatedly. I guess, i just have to accept things as they are, and not trying to fix everything. Because currently I am on a very string budget, I have decided to be extra careful with things that I buy now. On...

I'm 30 this age... it so unlike me to tell the world my age... heheheheh, but why should I shame with my age? It just a number. So, about 30, what about it that special? Many my friends are already married and have children of their own. My time hasn't come yet. So, what I do now is to focus on my current situation - to improve me. Life is about so many things, but the thing that I pursue, is calmness. Calm about that I believe in my religion, I have family that I love, a stable career, friends, and more. The list could go on. I am thankful, so I want to focus on what I have, instead of focusing on the things that I do not have and the things that concern me, that if I do not tackle it now, it will become  a big burden to me in the future, and that is paying off my loans. I read somewhere that if I focus on that thing, that thing will coming back to me. Like I am focus on loans, so I will be getting more loans. So, I focus to earn more money and I can pay off my loans....