Just a ranting about life, minimalism, gardening, kitchen, food, deco

Image via Wikipedia oh oh, who want to attarct the things that we do not like? Why it happen that way? Well because..... We kept thinking about it, and that's why it coming to us. Apparently the universe do not understand the word do not, don't... what matter is the subject matter of the things. Say that I do not like this particular brand, but as my mind and heart kept talking and thinking about it, and then.... the thing that I do not like coming and happen to me. Yes... it is true. For the past month, I do not like this particular brand, even though I do not have good reason, but I just don't. But as my heart kept giving reasons for not good things of this brand, turn out, I kept buying things from this brand. oh Oh.... Then I understand that the more I hate the thing, the more I will keep thinking about it and it will attarct, thus make me become closer to the things and make me buy it... Very bad discovery. Actually I read about this in Law of attraction few mont...

Sometimes the things you see is not that only, there can be a stories behind it. Example, received a present from someone you believe that hardly gives you anything. Well, apparently the person do not give the present just out of curiosity, but because there is this hidden messages behind it. Maybe the giver wants you to accompany him or her to some place. The giver might not say it directly or maybe a week later or maybe a month later, but the good deed that the person has bestowed upon you should be replied by agreeing to his or her wishes. By this way if you reject it, you will be haunted by the feeling of guilty. In my case, ohh... i do not know what to explain. I do not even know who to trust. What you see is not exactly what that is. But it is ok, it is all in the past now. Now it is new beginning for me... A new place and a new experiences awaiting me.... yes.. It is like I never encounter new places and new experiences, the experiences doesn't scare me, but I kind felt ...

Do you like buying things online? I thought I have passed that stage, and yet it coming at the full force. It happen beginning two weeks ago, where I was looking for a camera and it so hard to find the one that I satisfied. The cost of finding that is nearly 100, because I have to ask my neighbour to accompany me as I'm not familiar with the place. Of course I have to treat her to nice meal after accompany me, right? But the journey produce no result, so what I did was, I open the laptop and looking through the internet for a good camera. I search and read here and there diligently. Finally I've come to my conclusion and bought this camera. The weird thing is that when I compare the price here and oversea, it cheaper to buy oversea. Well, free postage too. I bought it from ebay. So, now I'm a proud owner of Canon s95. Still learning about it, and but as for now I am very satisfied.  This morning, again I make another purchasing. Kind ironic since I said to myself to be...

In my quest to find how to be rich, to be financially independent, to be able to settel my loans fast, I discover, no magic formula, except that I found this harsh word that is FRUGALITY.  I have to live frugally in order to achieve my financial goals. That's goes my dreams to do so many things if I want to achieve my financial goals. It makes me felt very sad and burden. As much as I wan to do and have so many things, I have to delay it until I really stable. Thinking back, the loans that I have now already burdensome to me, I cannot adding more debts.  Then, the other important matter is discipline. It takes a lot of discipline to achieved my goals. But my questions is, should I sacrifice to the extent of making me feels miserable, as long as I follow this rule? Like example, I have a problem with housemate, so I decided to stay alone, and I know I save money more if I share, but it will make me miserable as my previous experiences has taught me very bitter experiences. ...

It is something like this, would you put price on the things you do? I heard a saying there is nothing free in this world, so, based on this saying, isn’t it means that I also have to put price on the things that I do? But thinking back, it cannot be done that way. Not everything can be measure with price. But being too nice is also can be backfire. Let say, you do free of charge for everything you do for this one person, let say that this person is your best friend, and suddenly that person stab you in the back, would you feel hurt and start to questioned back your help to that person? Maybe people with strong heart will say, past is past, just let go, still, the experience will taught you something. Build a defence mechanism so, when something happen your heart will not feel too hurt.  I’ve been in this situation, and somehow I felt necessary. It is not wrong to be really sincere, but it just when people start taking advantage of that sinc...

Something to share... I got this from an email, but I do not know who is the writer... Real happiness lies in making others happy ---- This is amazing, he died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book The last lecture before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan , and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.May you be blessed by his insight. POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE Personality: 1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment 3. Don't overdo; keep your limits 4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does 5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip 6. Dream more while you are awake 7. Envy is a waste of time. You ...

Once I kind a person just get through whatever is in my mind. I do what I want. Now, at the age of 28, I realized, I can’t be that. I need to have a plan, a plan where I want to be and where I do not want to go. As I found out, it will be hard and very windy. I discovered actually, as much as I hate it, I need to have discipline. Why plan? Because then you know what to execute and what not to do. You think before you act. It doesn’t mean it will restrict what you want to do, instead it will give ways. It just, you do pro and cons of the actions that you are going to take. In work, I always plan, but not in life, rarely… but then I found out, even in life I have to do it. Plan is easy, but to execute is hard. But once I’ve plan something, I discovered the good and bad of the decision I’m going to take. Like today, I’ve found out so many truth about my life. Like, where I will be in few years if I do not learn to manage my money well. I alos just found out that it will take me an...

Some will cry, some will talk about it, some will hold it in their heart and many more. But when you are hurt, many things are happen in the heart and that’s when we do either something stupid or something intelligent and for me, this is when I always ended up doing really foolish things and say unnecessary words that make me feel regret later on. Not good, really not good. Hurt is something unavoidable. Sometimes, even a simple thing can trigger bad feeling. Maybe during that time, it was a bad time, and somebody say a wrong thing at the wrong time, and I could be angry, usually a very minimal angry, but that time I blew out of proportion…. Been there? I have… I learn to face this kind of thing is to be prepared, that is by not putting high hope on anything. Even to put high hope on myself seems burden, what more to other people, who I expect to do something to me, and if that person aren’t, I will feel hurt. Next is acceptance. Accept that th...

Today, 11th June is my birthday. Well, I'm bless to live until today healthily, and happily. Been bless with with great family, parents who are still live healthily and love me just the way I am. Even though deep inside I know they are worried that I still haven't marry and really wish for it, but they never push it. I love you mak n abah, and you are the greatest parents that I could ever ask for. I also have been bless with three older brothers, and we do always have misunderstand, and yet we still closely hold each other. I love you all. Then I have 9 cute nieces and nephew... and I love all of you. I also have a good and stable job. Yes, at times, I feel regret that I enter into this profession, but being in this profession is one of the best thing that happen in my life. I learn to know more about myself, meet so many good and (bad) people, learn to make people understand and me to understand people. I learn that that there are so many more of life, and each phase I...

Facebook is much fun, but twitter is much practical. I like both, but now I prefer Twitter. I just found out how to update using my handphone. Hahaha, during this long vacation, I able to do so many things and discover a lot of new things, and I like it. For twitter, I able to earn some income, whereas from facebook, none, so, I have to choose twitter if people ask me to choose between these two. Moreover, I think it much easier to use than facebook. I guess, it all depends on the preferences. Short update from me after hiatus for some time. I'll update more. 

I do not know whether teaching is the right job for me. I can easily angry with these pupils if they cannot understand what I’ve taught them. I’m kind a person who talks really fast, do not like to talk and repeat the same things again, but I’m in the profession that needs me to talk a lot, meet all kind of people and repeated the same things over and over again. What an ironic. I do not know how to make people impress, I’m a straight person and a person who do her kind job only. I have a sour face, rarely smile and yet having a career that require opposite of that things. I do not want to be a fierce person, and yet I found out that I am a very fierce person. I do not like to meet people a lot, and yet, I have to meet so many people and have to stand   all sorts of attitude. I know, these actually good, as it taught me to a better person, but it so hard. Who says that teaching is easy is wrong… totally wrong. 

Do not be like a tree, because it depends on the wind, if the wind come from south, it follows, and when the wind come from the north, it also be that way…it means following what other tell them to, not able having own decisive answer. But be a person who has a firm believe in yourself, who knows what to do when crisis arise, therefore, it is important to know what you want and who you are actually. I guess, that’s why when an interview is done, one of the questions that will be asks is what is your motto. Your motto shows your attitude. Let say an example, “ my motto is to walk ahead and never give up”… isn’t it shows that this person has a high perseverance because he knows that no matter what, he will walk on. You also cannot ask people who you are, because that answer can only be answered by you. Other people cannot determine what kind of person you are, they can see, they can judge and say anything about you, but only you know yourself better than anyone else. Therefore, know ...

When you have something you like to do, make sure you do it on regularly basis because that will ease the stress. For the last few months, it has been a very stressful months for me and I haven’t a chance to actually sit and concentrate on my favourite blog. I was wrong, because this blog has been my de-stress medication. I like putting my thoughts on my writing. There are so many things that I unable to say and voice out, but by type it somehow it makes me feel much better. Works will never finish, and it will keep coming back, and if I kept myself drowning in it, I will be drowning deeper. I do not want that. There should be something else besides work that I should concentrate on. After this my plan is to go travel, learn to cook and sewing. Then, I have much more things to write. My job is fun, but I want to explore other things too. But one thing for sure, shopping is a no no, as I want to save money and buy house and travel to many places, and also save for money too. But weird...

~ Be Thankful To God Arthur Robert Ashe, Jr. the legendary Wimbledon player was a prominent African American Tennis player who was born and raised in USA, was dying of AIDS. From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: "Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease?" To this Arthur Robert Ashe , Jr. replied: The world over. 5 Crore children start playing Tennis, 50 Lakh learn to play Tennis, 5 Lakh learn professional Tennis, 50,000 come to the circuit, 5000 reach the Grand Slam titles, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, When I was holding a cup I never asked GOD "Why me?" And today in pain I should not be asking GOD "Why me?" Be thankful to GOD for 99.99% of good things in life. When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard,' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?' - Sydney J. Harris Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love wi...

Got this from a facebook.... During a seminar, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How... do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing o n your mind.. Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love...Because it's happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that...

Hmmm.... money is really a very sensitive issue, isn't? And it kind frustrating to see when the salary come in, more than half of it go to pay loans... and loans are still there... and then I start counting days when I can finish pay the loans.... When I'm starting liking surfing internet, one of the blog that really inspired me is Amy Bass blog... her freedebtgoal blog. It is good blog. She will post how much she get from her online earning journey  and I think her hard work has been paid off. That's good, isn't? Once, I found it ridiculous to have two jobs in order to earn money, but now, I find it normal and even if that person has more than two jobs I found it normal now. Considering so many pricing hikes nowadays and the need to fulfill so many wishes and desires, having extra jobs is common. I know someone who has more than two jobs. And now i found it ridiculous when people kept complaining having not enough money and yet do nothing about it, but at the s...

Got it from a website, and share it here. These are quotations from famous people about hard work and perseverance and of course the right mind set.  It's fine to celebrate success but it is more important to heed the lessons of failure." ~ Bill Gates "As long as your going to be thinking anyway, think big." ~ Donald Trump "The last thing that people want to hear is the plain simple fact that the rich think differently [about money] than the poor ... They have what I call a wealthy mindset." ~ Robert G. Allen "If you work for money, you give the power to your employer. If your money works for you, you keep and control the power." ~ Robert T. Kiyosaki "Flaming enthusiasm, backed by horse sense and persistence, is the quality that most frequently makes for success." ~ Dale Carnegie "Actually, I'm an overnight success. But it took twenty years." ~ Monty Hall "I don't look to jump over 7-foot bars: I look ...

Even though you’ve done so much, so much and you thought it just it should be, you’ve done good things, so the other party must also should do good to you, but it not always that case. In fact, do not even expect that that person will do good back to you. I’ve been there a few times. I guess my mistake was to expect something in return. It can never work that way. Even   though you think you have helped that person a lot. And you never asked anything   in return, and when you asked a favour form that person, it is just norm for that person to help you. But too bad, it will not work that way. That’s why never expect anything in return. Lesson here be very sincere. Because there is something you have to remember, you do kind, the favour will return back to you much more, but from different person and in different forms, sometimes in unimaginable ways. This is what somebody told me when I was too hurt by that person actions. Reminder for me, do not even bother to think why that...

Bruce Jenner (Olympic Champion / Husband of Kris Kardashian) stated that there are 4 Keys to Success : Gamble, Cheat, Lie and Steal. • gamble - dare to take risks • cheat - cheat those who would hold you back • lie - believe in the love you have from others • steal - steal every moment of time It is simple, and seems easy, isn't? GHXXXHX22499949

 Do you bring your work home? For me, it is not a good idea, and as much as I hate bringing work home, I always find myself doing it again and again. And turn out I always unable to finish or even do the work that I've bringing back home. Ironic, isn't? But that is because I felt bad leaving the unfinish work at work and try hard to do it at home. But usually when I'm at home, I do not have any motivation to do my related work thing. But most of the times, I cannot help it. At work, I rarely eat because I prefer to do and finish my work, but still unable to finish it. The work is neverending. And by the time I'm arriving home, I'm too tired to face it again, even though I know I should. Thinking back, it is like school children, where I have homework to do at home. Is this how it supposed to be? Isn't this show that work has taken control of my life? I do not like that. Therefore, I've do somethings that are out of my job scope. I'm taking license ...

picture taken from h ere ; In life there are so many things to chase the dreams and hopes that really wanted to be fulfill. But it wasn’t easy, so, there are wishes and hopes that need to be pass at the expense of others hope. Kind sad, but it hard to achieve everything. But it doesn’t stop us to pursue what we want. We just walk ahead, and hoping and praying that there will be other ways to achieve what we are dreaming for. Are human too greedy to hope for so many things? Or, why is it so hard to have what I want? Are my wishes will come out true one day? Hmm, no one can answer these questions, but I know, what I can do is to move on, work on and never give up. Whatever you can set your mind to, you can achieve it. I’ve heard the quote. Then, whatever your heart has set something to it, there is no other way, but you will work hard to achieve it and you will get it. Is it true? It sounds so simple. But think about it, when you want something so badly, you work hard to achieve it, r...

I’ve abandoned this blog for a month, and that because of work. I love my blog because it is here I able to voice out my opinion. As a person who unable to express herself well with words, I find it easier for me to express what I think and feel through this blog. I find it is exciting to write and read. But work has taken control of me. Truthfully, I do not like it as it driven away my energy to do anything else. By the time I arrived home, the only thing I can think about is sleeping and it is not good at all. At least for me. By the way, I think sleeping is a very good way to ease my stress and difficulties. A hot chocolate drink before sleep is a great way to have a great sleep. Hehehe, that is my secret. Sometimes, in working, it is not my body that is tired, but my mental fatigues that make me really tired. Being a teacher that has to deal with humans, kids, educations, books, it really make my mind exhausted. When I talk about this with my colleague, they suggested me to go e...

It is from a person who just went through an emergency and money is really important. You can never predict when you are going to face this kind of emergency situation. Yesterday I was having a terrible headache. And it lead to throw up every time I walk or try to wake up. And until now, I felt like spinning around. Luckily for me, my parents live an hour from my rent house. After unable to stand the pain, I asked them to come to my house and helped me. My father brought me to the Clinique, and during that time, I do not have cash to pay for the medicine, and luckily my father does. For me it was embarrassing. Most of my money currently in the bank. And bank an hour journey from my place. When they say about emergency money, I think it also meant handy cash in hand. Especially when you live in a place secluded and far from bank and town.   And of course the clinic that I went to is a private clinic, means need to use a lot of money too. Ohh, it was horrible. 

For the past nine days, I’ve been having a time of my life, idle sitting at home. Not exactly doing nothing, but not going anywhere. The thought have to go anywhere is not really my liking, because I always had to go outside and drive my car around. Well, I got my wish to just stay at home. But starting this evening, I have to go back to reality, to go back to my rent house, and start to work hard. I do work during these holidays, mostly online, but I won’t have so many free time after this. My other commitments require my attention. I’m enjoying my holidays. I get a lot of rest and eat a lot delicious food, especially cook by my mom. But this is it. I have to stop resting and work toward my dreams.

Wow, what a day. I know and have read about many things about online earning and the only that works for me is writing. Well, not really good, but still able to earn some. Selling is not my thing.   But still. I still put an effort to it. So yesterday, when I open my amazon associate , it so good to see that I able to do some selling. Hmm… it is indeed a good feelings. I hope to do more after this. The only thing I need is consistency, concentration and good feeling. Well, by good feelings I mean whatever comes to me, I will still able to smile and work on it. I also liking the fact that this blog has followers. Wow…, never imagine that. Used to be, I do not know what to write, and now, I just write whatever comes to my mind and heart. J Have a great day everyone. 

Me… me… me…. I need help….. Ohhh…. The reason being? I do not like going to shopping mall. I felt awkward. It so far away from my place. I live and work at rural area. And now, whenever I want to go somewhere, I have to drive myself. It so hassle to find a palce to park, and driving is not my liking. Therefore, for me It so much better just sitting in front of laptop and choose the product. Sometimes, the product that I never think of having as at times you will find things that you never encounter seeing. Like last month, I bought a sauna belt at rm2, less than a dollar, but including the price of posting, the sum is rm20, around usd6. But then, I cannot used the belt because it so hot. Hehehehe…. Weirdly enough, I know window shopping or shopping helps me to lose weight something that I need it. As when shopping, we will walk around, and the bigger shopping mall, the better. It force you to walk a lot. And when you felt unsatisfied, you force yourself to walk again to search thin...

Hmmm….. I always have bad luck with friends. That’s why I’m afraid to build attachment towards people.  Once I’ve become closer, things will happen in a way that, that relationship will be broken in the middle.   It really hurt and I’ve been through that so many times. I wonder where is my mistakes are, I do not have other people specialty, good at conversation. I’m suck at it. I know that is my weaknesses, but other than that, I’m nice. If looks and appearance become an issue, well then I’m out. Now I realized that no matter how much goodness you put or give people, please do not expect anything in return, or else you will feel hurt. It just kind weird that, that you do not know where is the mistake is, and suddenly your relationship become cold. And I, once the relationship become that way, I felt hurt.. But I won’t retaliate, or do something equally hurt, I just ignore. I won’t be able be talkative as I used to be, and I have to avoid you as much as possible. But, I will...

Have you ever felt that you prefer to work alone? I do. And I still do, but there are times when I found out that working with people is much better and fun. Used to be, I do not like working with people because I always left out. Seems like I'm a weirdo and it makes me really hard to able to mix with people. Thus resulting in my low self esteem or contributing to my low self confidence problem. I do not know which one.  But then, I've met with people who laugh with me, and help me along the way. I do not feel sad anymore. I do not scared with people anymore. Yes, the problem of communication is there as I'm not used to talk freely with people. I also kind a person who always blurt out wrong things at the wrong time. Moreover it didn't help to have a terrible social skill. But i do not stop trying. I know the fundamental rules when establishing relationship with people, good intention and do not lie. If you do not want people to know your dark secret, just quite abo...